Incubus
03-25-2003, 10:47 AM
It seems the worse you do in college, the more expensive the experience becomes :(
I am mired in academic mediocricy (sp?). The problem is that I have a really hard time motivating myself to actually do any work. I have a tendency to put things off to the last minute, and only work hard enough to pass the class.
Very few classes assign homework/daily quizzes. This is a shame because this is something I was bad at in High School that I have greatly improved upon- a daily ritual of doing an assignment/reviewing because it is DUE immediately. The lecture/exam type- classes are very difficult for me because I pretty much have to establish a study regimen on my own.
One of my biggest setbacks is the fact that my entire life revolves around habitual behavior. It seems nothing I do day-to-day I do because I have to; instead I do it because its a habit. If extenuating circumstances would cause me to be unable to do that task just once, the habit is broken and I have to start over again. However, it takes me so long to start over that screwing up once is generally once too many. I've failed classes before because I was unable to do some regular assigment once and for the rest of the semester couldn't remember to do it on time. If I play hooky for whatever reason at a class, it will be very hard for me to keep going to the class and I'll wind up cutting class half the time.
If I were to wake up one morning and decide I wasn't going to do anything that day, it would be devastating. I wouldn't want go to to work anymore, I wouldn't want to go to school anymore. I'd become too lazy to do the most mundane and neccessary rituals (go to the dentist, eat breakfast, etc)
Its very frustrating, especially since my parents don't really understand the nature of the problem. Their stance is 'just do the work' but thats like teling your car 'just start working' when it breaks down
I am mired in academic mediocricy (sp?). The problem is that I have a really hard time motivating myself to actually do any work. I have a tendency to put things off to the last minute, and only work hard enough to pass the class.
Very few classes assign homework/daily quizzes. This is a shame because this is something I was bad at in High School that I have greatly improved upon- a daily ritual of doing an assignment/reviewing because it is DUE immediately. The lecture/exam type- classes are very difficult for me because I pretty much have to establish a study regimen on my own.
One of my biggest setbacks is the fact that my entire life revolves around habitual behavior. It seems nothing I do day-to-day I do because I have to; instead I do it because its a habit. If extenuating circumstances would cause me to be unable to do that task just once, the habit is broken and I have to start over again. However, it takes me so long to start over that screwing up once is generally once too many. I've failed classes before because I was unable to do some regular assigment once and for the rest of the semester couldn't remember to do it on time. If I play hooky for whatever reason at a class, it will be very hard for me to keep going to the class and I'll wind up cutting class half the time.
If I were to wake up one morning and decide I wasn't going to do anything that day, it would be devastating. I wouldn't want go to to work anymore, I wouldn't want to go to school anymore. I'd become too lazy to do the most mundane and neccessary rituals (go to the dentist, eat breakfast, etc)
Its very frustrating, especially since my parents don't really understand the nature of the problem. Their stance is 'just do the work' but thats like teling your car 'just start working' when it breaks down