Quasimodal
05-04-2008, 12:47 AM
Hi dopers.
I'm back, my membership expired about six months ago. I decided to renew and share some random thoughts about my life and what has happened recently.
If anyone was following what I was posting before, it was mostly along the lines of being depressed. I had a serious breakdown over Christmas and almost began taking anti-depressants. I say almost...it was a good thing my small amount of sensibility took over. I have worked together with my parents to try to get some things straightened out in my life.
I won't say yet I've figured it all out, but I don't feel deeply depressed anymore. I am handling myself better in public then I have in a long time. My social anxiety has decreased though I still am not creating any new relationships. My job as a teacher continues to roll along. Even though I am not satisfied where I live and am getting tired of the job, I am willing to stick it out one more year in order to build up a decent savings.
I am trying to set goals for both next year and the year after (the year after being the year I resign and head elsewhere)
In a way having that serious emotional breakdown was a good thing...I feel very humbled and have opened up to some people more than I have in years. I feel cautiously optimistic about the future.
Thanks for being my ears during a real period of crisis for me, I hope the worst is behind me. Rest assured you guys will help keep me sane in a community where I really don't fit in well.
I'll try to post more optmisitic things from now on :)
Thanks again
I'm back, my membership expired about six months ago. I decided to renew and share some random thoughts about my life and what has happened recently.
If anyone was following what I was posting before, it was mostly along the lines of being depressed. I had a serious breakdown over Christmas and almost began taking anti-depressants. I say almost...it was a good thing my small amount of sensibility took over. I have worked together with my parents to try to get some things straightened out in my life.
I won't say yet I've figured it all out, but I don't feel deeply depressed anymore. I am handling myself better in public then I have in a long time. My social anxiety has decreased though I still am not creating any new relationships. My job as a teacher continues to roll along. Even though I am not satisfied where I live and am getting tired of the job, I am willing to stick it out one more year in order to build up a decent savings.
I am trying to set goals for both next year and the year after (the year after being the year I resign and head elsewhere)
In a way having that serious emotional breakdown was a good thing...I feel very humbled and have opened up to some people more than I have in years. I feel cautiously optimistic about the future.
Thanks for being my ears during a real period of crisis for me, I hope the worst is behind me. Rest assured you guys will help keep me sane in a community where I really don't fit in well.
I'll try to post more optmisitic things from now on :)
Thanks again