a history of God.....

[adzoa k]

this may sound a little craaazaay, but .......
the other night, i was watching TLC's 'A History of God'. By watching that episode [i've been trying to have a life changing 'anything' right now, so bear with me] i've decided that i want to be a jew/muslim something or the other. now, how i plan on going about this, i have no idea. i'm trying to be spiritual, but it's just not happening. i'll be 24 in November and i guess i feel the need to connect with God before it's too late [is it ever?]. i don't want to force it, but i feel a need [or am i just jealous of those who have fulfilled their need]. i've always been envious of those who truly feel what they believe. i know this is supposed to come naturally, i'm not looking to get into 'heaven' by way of pretending to be what i'm not. can anyone suggest anything? web sites? books? something......