Whew… good topic, OP.
Let’s see, the first person to get the boot from my life was my ex-stepdad. He was sexually abusive to me and an all around cheating jackass to my mom. I don’t miss (or really remember) anything about him anymore. He married my mom when I was 4 or 5 and they divorced when I was 13-14.
My ex-stepmom. (man, my parents made some questionable choices after divorcing one another, huh?) She was a pretty fun person who got along great with kids, but went out of her way to make me feel shitty as a kid. She hated how like my mom I was and hated that there was someone in my fathers life that took precedence over her.
When I got older, we got along a lot better, but she was bipolar and addicted to several prescription medications (not sure what kind) which would cause her to lash out and do weird things… like, wake my dad up by punching him in the head. :eek:
She called me one day FUHREEEEAKING out because she and my dad got into a physical altercation. When I didn’t call her back immediately (I wanted to talk to my dad first and get the whole story), she left me a few VM’s calling me a “bitch” and then proceeded to call a friend of mine to find out where I was. When my friend told her that I was picking up a birthday cake for someone, she replied, “Yeah, like she needs cake.”
STEEEERIKE THREE, BATSHIT. I don’t miss her either. She was married to my dad from the time I was 4 until I was 24. She told my dad in the middle of a heated argument that I was the only girl he’d ever loved and he stopped mid-fight and said, “Yeah, I guess that’s true.” Thanks dad. :smack: It’s no wonder she lashed out at me a bit too.
My ex-boyfriend. We dated off and on for almost 6 years and I owe most of my intellectual development to his ambitious encouragement, but good LORD he had emotional issues. He threatened to break into my apartment and steal the cat that he left with me when he moved out to “Go Kerouac and travel to California” a couple years before. He screamed at me on the phone for over an hour, making several threats and hitting every button that I have.
That conversation brought all previous conversations of that caliber into sharp focus. This man once told me over a heated (read: he was SCREAMING and my phone was rattling) conversation, “You’ll never be okay.” More than once he explained to me that I was a bad mom… and that it is what it is… but that I need to accept it. I already felt horrible because my son was living with my mom and I KNEW my life was a wreck, but way to point out the obvious with a big, sharp knife.
He was really emotional and really good at guarding his emotion by hitting you where it hurts the most. I feel bad that it ended like it did, because he was otherwise a brilliant and generous-to-a-fault person. But I just couldn’t sustain that level of emotional combat anymore. I miss our conversations and his spark sometimes, but I still cry over words thrown between us years ago. What a mess. I haven’t seen him since he crashed my sisters wedding (respectfully, he was very quiet and didn’t bring any attention to himself… he’d known her since she was a kid and wanted to see her get married) and haven’t heard his voice since he called (a week or so after said wedding) threatening to steal the cat. I spoke to him online a month or two before my grandma died last May because he found out she was ill and wanted to be able to say goodbye as they were pretty close. I don’t know if he ever did get the chance to say his goodbyes, but I did provide him with the information to do so.
A boss I once had said something so poignant to me when my relationship with my ex-stepmom was going through it’s death throes.
She said, “The best part about becoming an adult is that you get to absolutely choose who is and isn’t a part of your life.” It was an excellent thing to say to me at the time.
When circus elephants are babies, they are tied to small stakes in the ground. When the elephant grows large enough to pull the stakes from the ground with little to no effort, it doesn’t occur to them to even try to break free.
Pulling those stakes out of the ground and walking away is the single most liberating experience I’ve ever had.