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Old 05-24-2014, 03:42 AM
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Originally Posted by kaylasdad99 View Post
Was Belkar's epiphany a matter of actual communication with the ghost of Shojo, or was it his brain, processing what he had been observing all along since joining the Order?

I'm inclined to think it was the latter. His conscious mind just couldn't deal with the punishment the Mark of Justice was dishing out to his body, so it checked out for a bit. This enabled his superego to get a word in edgewise, which it did, using an avatar of Shojo, the character who had made the strongest impression on him. The id, of course, had been shouted down, on account of being responsible for getting him into this mess in the first place.
Roy once said that Belkar was "clever in his own brain damaged way". So, yes, Belkar was probably aware at some level that his over-the-top evil ways were not in his own best interests. But he'd refuse on principle to step back from them - he'd see that as selling out to popular opinion. So his subconscious figured out a way to con his conscious mind - he convinced himself he was screwing over people by playing nice.