Erm.
Y’know, I’ve not posted here in so so long, and this thread just happened to be up on top when I came back to read after having a great time out with the BAD’s on Saturday.
That combined with a few glasses of wine, and some girlie hormone stuff, and maybe Mother’s day, just seemed to be the right (or maybe wrong) mix of ingredients to get me going.
I hardly think about that stuff anymore, and like a few others said, there were times growing up I thought it was normal, I thought everyone lived like that, or at least lots of other people did.
I didn’t mean to post a poor me pity party type thing, though I really truly appreciate everyone’s kind words. They really mean a lot to me.
My mom was, well, my mom. I hated her, I feared her, and I even loved her.
I love her still. And yet, I don’t like her very much at the same time. It’s hard to describe.
I’ve never reconciled my childhood with her, I think my sister and I tried once, but she wouldn’t have anything to do with it. (I think she accused us of using the trend of people going on Donahue and blaming their parents for their lives, or something like that.)
And sure I think about it every once in a blue moon, and it makes me sad, but there’s really nothing I can do about it, so I move forward. Oh well, bad things happen to good people. Sucks to be me.
I called my mom yesterday to talk to her, to hear her voice I guess.
She’s really quite nice now. She is a loving grandmother, very loving.
And she’s an OK mom to have nowadays (being on opposite sides of the country might have a bit to do with that!)
Anyway, I didn’t mean to make anyone sad, or play ‘here, top this!’ , it just sort of spewwed out unexpectedly.
And I do feel for everyone else that has posted their experiences, I’m sorry. What else can I say other than I think I know how you feel sometimes.
And once again, I am reminded of what a great group of people we have here.
You guys rock!
Oh yea, to answer Snooooopy’s question:
The wonder bread thing. That was sort of an inside joke between Demo and I, we actually laugh about it.
My mom attacked me with a loaf of bread before school (9th grade) one morning as I was rushing out the door. so I went to school with lumps of bread in my hair, much to the amusement of my friends, and myself.
I guess laughter is the best medicine after all.
[Inside Joke]Now, who wants to hear a happy childhood memory about pistachios??[/Inside Joke]