# everyting I aways wanted **URL:** \ **Category:** Miscellaneous and Personal Stuff I Must Share\ **Created:** [August 5, 2006, 8:22am UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/everyting-i-aways-wanted/367443 "2006-08-05T08:22:55Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 1\ **Showing post:** 1
**Author:** ![fifty-six](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/f/5daacb/32.png) [@fifty-six](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/fifty-six)\ **Post date:** [August 5, 2006, 8:22am UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/everyting-i-aways-wanted/367443/1 "2006-08-05T08:22:55Z")
OK here is is in short. After 8 years of sobriety and getting my life back on track I just discovered that I have everything I always wanted and I am mostly the person I aways wanted to be. I have several successful stimulating businesses, two wonderful children that I could not be prouder of, a wonderful marriage, I live in a great place, I have everything I need and most of what I want, I am healthy and like myself. All of this dawned on my about a month ago. I think I sensed it coming because I started to feel a bit anxious. So I quit smoking about a month ago and started working out and opened up discussions with my wife about some issues we were not talking about. All of this went with out hitch. I am not rich by American standards I just do not have a desire of “things” much. You see I spent the last 8 years of my life trying to put all the pieces of my life back together and be a “normal” person again. For 20 years I was either trying to get drugs or trying to get off them. I am done with that now and I found my self this month at the top of the ladder I set up for myself. What the hell am I suppose to do up here? It seems a bit scary. I never contemplated success. I always feared what would happen if I failed. I did not have a plan for success. Always I had a plan if something failed. I am 34 years old. I most likely have a long time to live and plenty of time to do what exactly what I don’t know. I think I am gonna work out a bit more and get better at the things I do and improve apon the things I have at least for now. Has this ever happened to anyone? --- _[View the full topic](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/everyting-i-aways-wanted/367443)._