I found my passion in a rather roundabout way.
I decided at a very young age that I never wanted a 9-5 desk job, ever. It seemed like the most boring thing to me, and I always heard adults complaining about their jobs, and it never seemed worth it to me. Spending 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, 50 weeks a year doing something you hated, just because it paid the bills? Not worth it. I’d rather do something I loved, even if money was tight.
So I had romantic visions of life as a starving artist, selling paintings and writing to survive. I was published 5 times in my local paper before the age of 12. I loved art class, and though I stopped drawing as much as I used to when I got into high school, I nevertheless felt that I had enough natural talent to make a career out of it. So I started going to college for graphic design.
Halfway through my second year, I realized that a graphic designer still had that same old 9-5 desk job, and their creativity was limited too. So I switched my major to English. That didn’t last long, either, because I realized that my lifelong concern about the education system and desire to reform it was probably a better course of action… So, I became an education major.
About that same time, I finally noticed my obsession with history. My dad is a history buff as well, and is writing a book on WWII, always watches the History Channel, etc. It never seemed unusual until I realized that most people aren’t like that. They find history boring. So I wanted to teach history. I wanted others to understand the importance of it, and instill an appreciation for history in my students. But why bother majoring in education, when I could major in history and get certified later? So, finally, I chose my major and stuck with it.
I’m a senior in college now, and will be applying to grad school soon. I am specializing in medieval European history. My chosen field has enough flexibility for me, so I see my career as mainly focused on research and writing, probably with a college professorship to pay the bills. And I also got a job at the local Holocaust Museum, which gave me even more options. I ended up leaving due to annoyance over mismanagement and blatant favoratism, but made good contacts and will probably get an internship at the National Holocaust Memorial Museum in D.C. soon. Now my only fear is that I will switch to Holocaust and Genocide Studies, pushing back graduation even further.
So, I finally realized that I just needed a career that allows for flexibility, creativity, and the feeling that I am doing something to promote education and the greater good. Another of my passions is language, which ties in nicely with the history. Medieval Europe means not a lot of English, so I continued taking French in college and will probably study Latin as well. It’s a good thing, too, because I discovered recently that the grad schools I will probably apply to require applicants to demonstrate fluency in a foreign language.
I haven’t completely deserted my art, but now see it as a hobby that is a good stress reliever rather than a potential source of income.