Just to throw one more log on the fire, I am an engineer and an atheist.
My parents made every attempt to raise me as a Christian - something that never really took root with me. I found that, even as a young child, I was simply unable to believe or have faith in the things I was told to believe in. I was dragged to church, dragged to Sunday school and dragged to Bible school. None of it ever affected my complete and utter lack of any belief whatsoever because even as a young child, I required proof.
In the absence of any kind of evidence that a ‘god’ existed, I concluded that ‘god’ did not exist. I do not pray, I do not believe in afterlife, I do not entertain the ideas of heaven or hell, I find no comfort in funeral services, I do not believe in sanctity. I never felt a ‘need’ to be this way.
I have, in the last several years, developed an interest in witchcraft, which people constantly tell me goes against my assertation that I am an atheist; however, I still do not believe in magic, higher powers or gods. Spells to me are the ritualistic use of plants, herbs and other tools to exact some sort of desired effect. There are scientific reasons why these things work; there are chemicals in the plants that actually do cause change. My ‘ritual’ is nothing more than the strongly structured habit that enforces following the same practice with the same tools to achieve the same result each time.
As for how I think I’m viewed, it’s a tense situation with my co-workers. Many of them are very devoutly Christian and are often inviting me to events of religious natures, which I always decline to attend. When my employer held an event, and a prayer before the event, I declined to attend the prayer and was met with open hostility. I was criticized and called names, and a few co-workers asked why I couldn’t just ‘go and participate and stop being so damned contrary.’ I asked him if he would participate in a spell casting if he was the only non-witch in the company - just to go along with it and not be contrary. When he said it would go against his religious beliefs to be there, I told him that’s why I wasn’t going to the prayer. He replied ‘Yeah, but it’s not like you have beliefs.’
It used to be worse. When I was younger I was threatened with violence because I came from a very strongly Christian area and I was seen as a real problem because I didn’t believe. I was hassled on a daily basis, and I had to deal with people believing I was a promsicuous, criminal drug addict who was going to Hell - and with them telling me this constantly.
My lack of belief has not changed, though I continue to be told by religious folks that ‘It will, when god wants it to’. I just keep telling them that in my universe, there is no god. What doesn’t exist cannot affect change. And then they tell me ‘god loves you anyway’. What I’ve found is that though I am able to accept that they believe, I cannot possibly believe it myself. On the other hand, they cannot accept that I do not believe.
So I suppose my question is to those who continually try to prove to atheists that we’re not really atheist, or that we’re wrong: Why can’t you accept that we just don’t believe?
- catsix
religiously inert engineer