Let me first register my stats: I’m a 35-year-old agnostic openly gay male teacher in some order and I feel justified in saying that I don’t have self-loathing baggage, religious or otherwise. That declared, I have to admit that, maddening as the martyrdom of Matthew Shepard by ignorant bar trash was, his martyrdom by the gay community is just as sickening.
BIG DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT IN ANY WAY CONDONE THE KILLING OF MATTHEW SHEPARD OR IN ANY WAY STATE THAT HE DESERVED TO DIE
Matthew Shepard was, by all accounts, a miserable human being in all senses of the term. In addition to suffering from chronic depression he was described by many, including friends, as moody, arrogant, obnoxious, and self-centered. When a straight bartender he liked spurned his advances and cursed him, Matthew responded by charging him with attempted rape (not a rumor, but public record; in his “defense”, he later dropped the charges). He chose the University of Wyoming out of all schools he could get into yet is said to have continually denigrated both town and gown (you all know the type), and his past seems to have leant towards the promiscuous. Best evidence indicates that his murder was a burglary that quickly got fatally out of hand.
Shortly after Matthew’s murder, Billy Jack Gaither, a man from a small city in Alabama, was murdered by a white supremacist who set an ambush for him, bludgeoned him to death, and burned his body on a pyre of tires he had prearranged in the woods. The murder could not have been more premeditated had there been committee meetings and it was undertaken for no reason other than his sexual orientation.
By all accounts, Gaither was an exceptional human being. He left a successful career in Birmingham (a city of about one million with a substantial gay community) to return home to Sylacauga (a provincial outpost with no openly gay presence, though strangely it is the hometown of Jim “Gomer Pyle” Nabors) in order to nurse his elderly and infirm parents. He was active in his church and even those who were stunned to learn after his murder that he was gay still defended him, some even stating that the latter day outing changed their opinions of gays.
Matthew Shepard is the totem pole for everything from pro-hate crime legislation factions to all manner of tolerance organizations, the kid that few liked becoming overnight just short of “a god in Colchester”. Billy Jack Gaither is essentially forgotten by everybody but his friends and family. Matthew Shepard had pouty GAP model good looks, glossy photos, and a background including world travel and prestigious finishing schools; Billy Jack Gaither, for all his virtues, was an overweight and not particularly attractive redneck whose background was small town Baptist.
Coincidence? Or is it that Americans, including gay Americans, are so easily led by the sound-byte and Jennifer Anniston image tabloidization of the media that quality of personality is shoved aside like yesterday’s Whitewater scandal in exchange for waifish lips?
Feel free to disagree.