Thank you so much for all of the support. Sometimes it’s just nice knowing there are people who have been there and are willing to listen to you whine a bit.
NAMI has a group in my area and I will give them a call on Monday and I’m checking into Al-anon as well. I think my own teens would do well to go to Alateen because this has really messed with them as well.
We were a pretty close family but we are also the type of people that distance ourselves at times when we need space. I just thought my sister was distancing herself because she just went through a break-up. I really do feel I messed up by not seeing things sooner or when I did start to see things I should have acted sooner because I ended up without their support.
Does it take a few tries in re-hab to make it? She was supposed to go to classes after she left in-patient but never went.
It was suggested I get a copy of the big book?
I really, really just don’t understand what is so appealing about coke, crack, meth, or whatever new is out there. It’s expensive, it makes you look like crap in the end and the biggy it can kill you. Does it make you forget? Does it make you numb?
Evidently it makes you sell/pawn all of your things, your kids things and some shit that doesn’t belong to you but is in the house. I guess I am lucky I got the china and stoneware since she sold everything else that wasn’t nailed down.
The girls are safe and sound and looking healthier and happier. The oldest wasn’t eating at home towards the end from what she told my sister in law. They went out to dinner and my niece was picking at her food and then explained that in the last few months my sister would yell at her not to eat all the food and save some for her younger sister.
She started just eating at school and picking here and there at home so she wouldn’t get in trouble and so her sister could eat. I guess even though I had put a few groceries in the house and she had food stamps, that all of her friends were eating the food and I think she sold the food stamp card. I knew you could sell the stamps when they were actually paper, but I thought it would be harder since they put it on a debit type card.
I feel like such a calous bitch when I say some of the things I say, but I’m still in disbelief about much of it. I know it really happened I just don’t understand it.
I’m taking a bunch of ten year olds camping tonight for my youngest daughters birthday and it will be nice to have a night away from home. Our whole family and then my daughters friends.
Just wanted to let you guys know if I don’t respond to the thread tonight you know I’m not avoiding. (I am the queen of avoidence) And if you don’t hear from me tomorrow then worry because that means the ten years olds have rioted and I’m done for.