Doors, my best wishes to you, and I hope that you can find a treatment.
I have virtually no medical or military experience, so please regard this post as good intentions, and my words as more paving stones in that journey to my inevitable destination…
I have a number of friends and family in the military; they are in different branches, but they are unanimous in thinking that many military doctors are over their heads in treating much more than a broken ankle. And, in the case of my cousin’s son (a paratrooper), not even that. I believe from previous posts that you are still overseas? That may present some difficulties, but is there any way that you can consult with someone in private practice in your area? Or can you swing some leave and get home to a dermatologist?
My guess is that you have been living with this long enough to be conversant about your symptoms and medications, and have probably considered most of the remedies that are likely to be recommended here. Nevertheless, new treatments and medications are developed everyday. Is there a possibility of pursuing this long-distance with a stateside expert?
Have you discussed this with your CO? Is (s)he the sort of person with whom you have a good relationship? Your CO may be able to put your mind at ease about this; either about maintaining your current career, or (in the worst case) where you go from here.
I have a friend from high school who who joined the Navy and served for a number of years, considering himself to be a lifer. Until a routine blood test revealed HIV, and he was immediately removed from his ship. He had a strong bond with his shipmates and his CO, and I think he was more devastated by the loss of his buddies than he was by his diagnosis. He kept in contact with all of them, and they were very supportive of him. Although he was compelled to leave the Navy, he was able to continue on as a consultant in his field(Framemaker, Photoshop, desktop publishing), maintaining his relationship. Again, it is a worst case, but instead of abandoning your career and your friends, you may be able to continue it in a different way.
If that doesn’t pan out, there is always copy editing for the growing illiterati
Happy to provide a reference.
As far as the cruel comments, I hope that it wasn’t from your fellow Airmen. That is hardly my idea of honor or camraderie if it was. Anyway, the hell with them, they need to grow up and learn about life.
Take care,
plynck