[QUOTE=Paul in Saudi]
I have an an odd attraction and fear of heights. Things like hotel atriums and multi-level shopping malls. A weird fear, sweaty palms and a slight urge to jump. (Am I the only one?)
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Not the only one. There’s walkways that cross busy roads here, and we live right next to one. Sometimes when I’m walking over them I get this weird weak feeling in my legs and half an urge to jump.. even though I would never do such a thing. Same with at miltulevel malls and, strangely enough.. when playing video games. I get the same weak feeling in my legs when playing Mario and trying to leap over the spaces or if there is a lot of jumping gaps I have to do.
Probably why I have such trouble finishing the games.
Other quirks/phobias of mine:
I’m deathly afraid of my words being mistaken and either laughed at or people getting angry at me because of it. Which means I am constantly thinking of how my words could be construed, but often a moment or two behind when I say (or post) them. Because of this, I prefer to keep quiet rather than have my words mistaken, especially after an experience in high school where I realized my words could be mistaken for a double entendre a moment after saying them, and tried to correct myself which only highlighted what I was hoping they wouldn’t notice.. and then I got laughed at by the whole class (this just happened to be when we were playing out a trial of MacBeth, I was Hecate and on the stand).
This also means I try to think over my posts, and more often than not many get deleted because they are either no longer relevant or I decided that they could be taken in a way I don’t want too easily and refuse to take the chance on it.
I’m better than I was, after a few years of hanging out with guys who take anything as the worst they can make it and exchanging zingers back and forth.. I’m not quite easy with it, but I’m easier than I was. I have to be comfortable with the people first though, otherwise I am still the quiet wallflower.
The other one is stuff coming at my head. I am always afraid of hitting my head on things. I duck instinctively through the majority of doorways, slouch through parkades, and flinch if I see anything coming towards my head. This has resulted in many times flinching back on the bus as I stand from my seat, because the hand straps they have dangle at a level about the side of my face. I know it is there, but I sometimes forget or don’t pay attention and then when I get up I see this thing from the corner of the eye aimed at the side of my face and flinch back.. a couple times hard enough to land back in my seat because I so offbalanced myself.
This is also why I don’t wear heels over 2 inches, and even that is pushing it. I prefer flats because I’m already 6’1 and adding a couple inches just makes it more likely I will hit my head, especially on buses.