OK, I just went and looked at the David Burns website. AAACK!! I’m not saying they’re bad books (like I said, I know folks who’ve had CBT work for them), but Jeez Louise! That is a seriously cheesy-looking website and some HORRENDOUS photos of the dude. Too bad he’s 2000 miles away, or I’d trade him a new website for therapy sessions.
freckafree - thanks for the articles. I’ve skimmed over them and will read them more carefully later. I’m not so worried about emotional blunting (I’m already doing that in many areas, just not the bad ones that need it), but I think I’ve got the same fine line to walk as you. I’m already doing a grand job of avoiding the things that need to be done, I don’t need any help with that because “who cares”!
fuffle - yes, that’s what I’m starting to wonder about. I’ve been in this situation for 5 or 6 years now, with extra problems added a couple of years ago. Lately it seems to be moving in a downward spiral - I get upset or angry very easily, but without corresponding good moods when things go well. What you did is exactly what I’d hope for - a short stint on meds to get me back on my feet. Side effects; it would depend. Several of the most distressing side effects I’ve heard about aren’t really a problem for me right now, anyway.
Again, would you mind telling me what you took?
AHunter3 - I agree with you. I don’t think I have “clinical depression”, and I’m not at all sure that drugs help with “situational depression”, which is why I’ve avoided the meds route. I don’t even self-medicate to speak of (occasional recreational use only), other than reading fluffy escapist literature. I really dislike the idea of messing with my brain chemistry unless someone can show me clinical proof that it’s off-balance, and that a specific med will specifically fix that. But I gotta do something. I will definitely research specific meds before I start taking anything; don’t be surprised if I’m back here looking for info and anecdotes after I talk to the doc.
On review - I’ve been out at Wikipedia getting some general info on the various anti-depressants. I see they’re starting to find long-term problems that don’t necessarily go away when you quit taking them. That’s what I’ve wondered about for years (even before I started having problems) - if these things would permanently muck your brain chemistry. Temporary side effects is one thing; permanent problems is something else entirely. It’s pretty damn scary, even if it’s only 10%. Hell, major surgery doesn’t usually carry that level of risk!
Shit, shit, shit, shit. I’d almost convinced myself to try meds, but I dunno about this.
Thanks for the responses, everyone. I can’t keep with y’all, but I’ll be back!