Hi, all!
I’m back frrom up north (again).
First kiss? Well, I was in electroniocs school. There was this cute slightly-chubby Chinese girl I was semi-interested in. I was physically attracted to her, but not very comfortable around her–I had a feeling that she had inner craziness–so I tended to say little and be cautious. She was in the other section of the electronics program, so I never saw her in classes; but I did see her in the lab.
Nevertheless, we hung out together. One day, out of boredom, we ended up going over to the apartment in which I rented a room. In the elevator she leaned over and kissed me. This took me by surprise; in the next second or so I rewound my memory and worked out what had happened. As a geek who never expected any interest from anyone, I was totally unprepared.
We ended up cuddling a bit, but since I wasn’t really willing to go further with her, little more happened. The next year, she ended up going out with someone else and they moved to Ottawa and got married.
In other news, I saw my father, my sister, and my brother-in-law yesterday. Dad is in a nursing home in Owen Sound. He’s frail, but is in semi-decent shape for an 81-year-old. (Yes, we tend to have long generation times in my family.) However, he does have problems, and is in a wheelchair.
Dad is unable to live on his own anymore; we had arranged an excellent apartment for him–brand new and quite a bit nicer than the one I live in, actually–but over time he had more and more problems living alone, and when they found him fallen and passed out on the floor after laying there for an unknown number of hours, he went to hospital and the hospital would not let him out except to a registered long-term-care facility.
Dad spends his days in the nursing home reading and watching TV. He lives in his bed, except when he gets into his wheelchair and scoots down the hall to the dining room or lounge. He can’t go far without, er, sanitary problems.
Dad has his hictures on the wall: all us kids, his sister, his parents, his second wife (my stepmother), his Navy pictures. But my mother, his first wife, is not there. I now understand from other relatives that their beakup devastated him.
But it’s the sounds of the nursing home that disturb me. I heard incoherent cries and occaisionally sobbing when I was there yesterday. The nursing staff do the best they can, but it’s like a university residence from some horrible nightmare.
Patients wander the hallway on their walkers, with no clear idea of who they are or what they are doing. One such lady wandered through the open door of my father’s room while we were visiting, and Dad got quite testy and shooed her out.
My sister is very disturbed by the nursing home. (I am too, for that matter, but not as much as she). My aunt said that there’s no way she would want to go to one.
You have to enter a code on a keypad to get out.
There has got to be a better way, but I don’t know what it is. I keep thinking that it would be better to end the segregation and mix the residences of the elderly who need such care with those of other people, but there are all kinds of hospital things that need to be provided, like 24-hour nursing care, barrier-free access, emergency alarms, piped oxygen, and so on.
At least the place has a resident cat who travels from room to room and greets everyone gives comfort. She came in to the room yesterday while we were there and nudge-bumped all of us. Even that is spooky, though; my other aunt said that the cat somes in and sleeps next to someone who is dying… and that’s how the staff gets an early warning…