# That random occurring excitement along with some curiosity to learn **URL:** \ **Category:** Miscellaneous and Personal Stuff I Must Share\ **Created:** [February 9, 2018, 9:37pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/that-random-occurring-excitement-along-with-some-curiosity-to-learn/808549 "2018-02-09T21:37:04Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 1\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![MaverocK](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/m/9de0a6/32.png) [@MaverocK](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/MaverocK)\ **Post date:** [February 9, 2018, 9:37pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/that-random-occurring-excitement-along-with-some-curiosity-to-learn/808549/1 "2018-02-09T21:37:04Z")
I got lots of textbooks. Books as PDF files etc. I bookmarked lots of studies and interesting articles. I am learning German. And so on. The books sits in a box in my apartment. The PDF files are on the HDD. Backed up in three different systems and HDDs. I randomly get a feeling that I can’t put a name on it. I can’t really describe it. It’s something to with curiosity. I pull a random book and start reading. Without any study or reading plan. I got bored and got lost after an hour and go back to play video games or start cooking food. I can’t keep that excitement going and going and going as long as I want it to go. Ohhh ☹ Like… until I master the book or the subject. I used to take Ritalin. It’d help. If you ever experience something similar, you might want to consider it. I once read a facebook status update: “I think idealism is an addiction too.” I agree. I can’t read and know everything. No matter how many job interviews I failed. No matter how average my grades were. No matter how many times I got defeated in discussions about a random subject. No matter how stupid some think I am. That is a rather random post but I had to write it. Maybe I had to write this to see what I am thinking. It’s useful to write down something to become aware of what is on your mind. Don’t expect an 100% accuracy of awareness.