Trying to figure out what happened to best friend

For example: Florida man

Thank u very much. I honestly am really holding on to a lot of guilt and wondering y she didn’t call me before doing that. I really just think that it would help me to get closure if I seen it in black and white and know details and stuff, I think it will help me to maybe wrap my head around it or set my mind at ease and help me to b at peace wit myself and the whole situation. Its just my way to heal I guess… I have to know and I don’t want to drive myself crazy. I really appreciate everything! This is just the first time a friend this close has passed away and I’m just trying to grief my own way.

Thank u everyone!! I’ve been in the hospital so I haven’t been abe to get on. I will look into all of ur suggestions. They r all highly appreciated!