I remember a quote from Albert Einstein:
“Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile”.
That’s exactly how I feel.
I live for my wife, for the 6 dogs we’ve rescued, for my friends, and for everyone I care about, or will come to cross paths with.
Life is hard - no question, and the older I get, the harder it seems, especially when you start contemplating all the philosophical questions we eventually ask ourselves.
It seems the harder you think about these questions, the more fucked up you feel sometimes.
You guys might find this strange, but sometimes I think about what death will be like, and if I am enough time during death to have a thought process, I wonder what it will feel like to take my last breath, what the actual act of dying will feel like, and what happens next (if anything) Some people die very sudden and abrupt, and don’t have the luxury of having a last thought or a final feeling)
Does the energy surrounding my consciousness just dissipate into the atmosphere, or does it take on a consciousness of its own?
No I’m not religious, I am 100% agnostic, and to be anything else is to make assumptions I’m not in a position to make. (IMO)
One thing is certain, I love life, I love people, and helping people even in a small way gives me a feeling of purpose, it helps justify my existence.