I was quite the smooth criminal for the first six months of 2004, my senior year/last semester of high school. My firsts kept on rolling out one after the other; first kiss, first oral, and first sex were pretty spaced out but as soon as that happened I had sex with my second ever partner and things just picked up exponentially from there. My whole senior year, I had been the subject of much female adoration and attention, and it took me a while to figure out what to do with it. By the time I had come into my own as a freewheeling sex machine, pleasurin’ and a-gettin’ pleasured, I was started college and I soon gained 30 pounds on a steady diet of pizza, rum and pot. It hasn’t been the same since.
Now it’s really hard for me to listen to the Postal Service, Everclear, Bad Religion or the Sneaker Pimps; those bands were a major part of the soundtrack to my life at that point. I’m overcome with sadness when I hear one of those songs I recognize from that time–the sadness of realizing at the time that I had blown so many chances at getting laid like a blanket by girls of all stripes (which was quickly alleviated by actually getting laid like a blanket), plus the sadness of my sudden fall from grace. More than anything, it’s the Postal Service and one particular song by the Sneaker Pimps (“Six Underground”); that was the playlist I listened to while getting ready for a day at the park tripping out with my favorite girl at the time, who singlehandedly cured me of my fear of intimacy and especially of being touched, and later gave me my first kiss. That wasn’t the day we had my first kiss (it had already happened), nor the day I had my first oral (same girl, but later), nor the first time I got laid (a month or two later with a different girl), but it was a really magical day for us and hearing a song we listened to on that day almost brings me to tears.
The smell of mothballs–OK, that’s odd, and I can’t empathize with it since I reached puberty in the free-Internet-porn generation. But something sort of similar: the smell of stale tobacco smoke on a woman’s body/clothes/hair always brings me back to a happier place. I don’t even notice it on a guy, since my dad is a massively habitual smoker and stale smoke was his “baseline” smell all through my childhood; but with my last GF, who was also the first GF to ever live with me and sleep in my bed regularly, our first “magic day” was when we cuddled in my bed all day long after she smoked a cigarette. Ever since, smelling smoke on a woman brings back that sense of excitement and anticipation from a new romance. For this reason, women who smoke have a leg up on the competition with me now, even though I was a non-smoker at the time and I’ve started and stopped smoking since.
And that first-kiss girl I mentioned earlier? She wore this one particular perfume when she had dirty thoughts in mind for the night, and for about two years I actually thought that was the smell of a woman getting aroused, despite knowing from first hand experience that it wasn’t what girly bits smelled/tasted like. That led to a number of very unfortunate misunderstandings, but even now smelling that perfume makes me randy.
I just rediscovered the emotion that Bitter Sweet Symphony (by the Verve) brings out in me today. Back in my second (third?) semester of college, I had an 8:00 AM physics class; I would always show up half an hour early, park my car, recline the seat as far as it would go and relax to whatever music was playing. It was a great way to clear my head and get myself centered and ready to take on the day. Bitter Sweet Symphony must’ve come on a couple of times during those occasions and just been the perfect song for the moment.
The smell of espresso while I’m pulling it into a cup for a customer’s drink always instills a sense of longing for me. I had to give up espresso a couple of weeks ago after a medical scare, and I really miss it when I’m making drinks for someone else with it.