# What is your ongoing battle? **URL:** \ **Category:** In My Humble Opinion\ **Created:** [September 19, 2012, 5:18pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192 "2012-09-19T17:18:08Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![Agent\_Foxtrot](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/a/9fc29f/32.png) [@Agent\_Foxtrot](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Agent_Foxtrot)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 5:18pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/1 "2012-09-19T17:18:08Z")
In another thread, someone quoted Plato: “Be kind; everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” I think that’s true and I’d like to know what battle you’re fighting that most other people don’t see. As for mine, I was born to two very difficult parents. My birth mother was a postpartum psychotic who put me through two years of terrible neglect before my father finally got custody. However, he himself has Asperger’s and Narcissistic Personality Disorder and was never really able to connect with me on the level that most fathers connect with their sons. Safe to say, this has led me to be woefully ill-equipped socially, both in childhood and adulthood. Since I have pretty much nil ability to read people and perceive what they’re thinking or feeling I’ve managed to survive using a very well-practiced system of mental defenses and strategies. I’ve been able to keep a circle of friends and several relationships with the opposite sex. Except… Except as I’ve gotten into my 30’s, this strategy of mine has become less and less effective. Professionally, I’ve been underpromoted, underpaid, and underutilized throughout my working years despite displaying a lot of competency. Why? People simply don’t connect with me, or worse, don’t like me because I’m socially inept. Currently, as I’m moving into more of a management role, I’m finding it increasingly difficult to handle the political side of my responsibilities. The more I try to plan, strategize, and anticipate other people’s responses, the worse things get. It sucks. So much of employment rests on how much people like you. That’s mine. What’s your personal everyday battle? ---
**Author:** ![perfectparanoia](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/p/a5b964/32.png) [@perfectparanoia](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/perfectparanoia)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 5:22pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/2 "2012-09-19T17:22:10Z")
Depression and anxiety. There are days when I can’t even function. Every day it is hard to force myself to get out of bed. Yet I still maintain an outward appearance of being capable and competent. I spend my days hiding what is really going on inside. ---
**Author:** ![tdn](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/t/94ad74/32.png) [@tdn](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/tdn)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 5:46pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/3 "2012-09-19T17:46:04Z")
It’s social skills for me too. I’d like to think that I’m getting better at it, but it’s been a tough learning curve. ---
**Author:** ![Spice\_Weasel](https://sea3.discourse-cdn.com/straightdope/user_avatar/boards.straightdope.com/spice_weasel/32/5435_2.png) [@Spice\_Weasel](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Spice_Weasel)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 5:47pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/4 "2012-09-19T17:47:07Z")
Depression. It’s the great struggle of my life. It always has been. Even on good days, it’s there. It actively robs me of my desire to succeed, and I have had to find ways to succeed in the absence of immediate motivation. I have learned to cope, but it’s always a struggle. The great accomplishment of my day today, an ordinary day off work, was taking a shower. ---
**Author:** ![Gatopescado](https://sea3.discourse-cdn.com/straightdope/user_avatar/boards.straightdope.com/gatopescado/32/5711_2.png) [@Gatopescado](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Gatopescado)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 5:54pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/5 "2012-09-19T17:54:10Z")
Water Company. The way the billing is set up, you are screwed if you don’t use your allocation, and screwed if you use over. So, every month, I watch the meter like a hawk, and use\* every drop \*I’m paying for, and aviod going over like the clap. Hard to do in winter, harder to do in summer. April and Sept. are the only slide times. Childish? You bet! 😃 ---
**Author:** ![velvetjones](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/v/5f9b8f/32.png) [@velvetjones](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/velvetjones)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 5:57pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/6 "2012-09-19T17:57:45Z")
Mine is shyness. I have a hard time making friends and looking back throughout my life I realize that the majority of my friends have come from other connections within my family. I know that’s probably pretty normal but after living in the same general area for 42 years I had finally (at the age of 49) accumulated a nice circle of friends. Then 2 years ago I moved and I’m back to having no friends. I have co-workers and friends who are my husband’s friends but I’m just not good at meeting people or even when I meet people, reaching out to them in a way that would spark a friendship. The weird thing is that I’m not socially inept. I’m pretty comfortable in social situations and really good once I know someone, but I’m shy about reaching out to a new potential friend. I’ve always felt like there’s some secret that I just don’t get. ---
**Author:** ![Student\_Driver](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/3da27b/32.png) [@Student\_Driver](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Student_Driver)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 6:18pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/7 "2012-09-19T18:18:47Z")
Shyness in meeting new people. This is separate from my introversion, which itself doesn’t bother me. To this day, I’ve never asked anyone out. Depression. I can’t remember not being depressed, even as a child, and even during happy events, there’s a streak of melancholy running through. A fierce streak of independence that makes me unable to ask for help, take gifts, etc. A tendency to withdraw and hide when hurt. I’m a cat person in the sense that I like cats, and a cat person in the sense that I act like a cat when hurt… except I don’t go hiding in the sock drawer. An inability to relax. I thrive on stress, and shut down when I don’t have pressure or deadlines or anything hanging over my head. ---
**Author:** ![bup](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/b/6bbea6/32.png) [@bup](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/bup)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 6:27pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/8 "2012-09-19T18:27:38Z")
A few. I am very easily distracted, and I constantly struggle to accomplish anything, to finish anything. I also am very shy, and some people have found me rude when in fact I’m just too quiet and nervous to approach people. More specific battles right now are that my wife had a stroke this year, and gets discouraged and wants to quit rehab; that my daughter has crippling anxiety that keeps her from making friends, and that my wife and my daughter are pushing each others’ buttons all the time. ---
**Author:** ![tdn](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/t/94ad74/32.png) [@tdn](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/tdn)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 6:39pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/9 "2012-09-19T18:39:49Z")
> [@bup](#): > > I also am very shy, and some people have found me rude when in fact I’m just too quiet and nervous to approach people. That’s very common, I think. I had a sort of revelation about that recently, concerning two of my nieces. They are both beautiful, smart, friendly, and funny. But while one makes friends easily, the other is having the hardest time making and keeping friends. And there’s something a little off-putting about her. She almost comes off as stuck up, or as you say, rude. It took my sister to point out what it was, though she didn’t know how profound her observation was. She pointed out that my niece and I have the same posture, which is really closed off. Once I got that, and changed my posture, the world suddenly became a much friendlier place. ---
**Author:** ![Enkel](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/e/df705f/32.png) [@Enkel](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Enkel)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 6:41pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/10 "2012-09-19T18:41:31Z")
> [@Gatopescado](#): > > Water Company. […] If you’re really serious about it, install a water holding tank and secondary pressure tank. That way you can pull off your allotted amount daily and use it according to your needs. E.g. If your allotment is 50gal/day (1500/mo) Put the smallest pressure tank possible at your water-in line drop (because it will only run once or twice a day and water pressure isn’t important - here’s a 19gal tank for $159 [http://www.tractorsupply.com/countyline-reg-pre-charged-pressure-tank-19-gal-capacity-3123310](http://www.tractorsupply.com/countyline-reg-pre-charged-pressure-tank-19-gal-capacity-3123310) ) Run out line from pressure tank into the water holding tank ( here’s a 550gal for $429 [http://www.tractorsupply.com/storage-tank-550-gal-42-in-h-x-67-in-dia--2137332](http://www.tractorsupply.com/storage-tank-550-gal-42-in-h-x-67-in-dia--2137332) ) Connect it with a water timer that pulls X gallons per day and has either a cut off switch if the holding tank is full or runs the over flow out to your drain. – This tank only has to hold a couple days worth of water to allow you to queue it for later use. If you run the overflow into the drain, you’ll be drawing your allotment no mater if you actually use the water or not. Run the out line from the water holding tank to your existing pressure tank (because it is sized for your daily usage habits) Run the out line from that pressure tank to your existing house hold use. Whala… no more meter watching after you’ve tweaked it in the first month to make sure that you’re not going over. ---
**Author:** ![Sister\_Vigilante](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/9de0a6/32.png) [@Sister\_Vigilante](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Sister_Vigilante)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 6:42pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/11 "2012-09-19T18:42:46Z")
My favorite part of the day is going back to bed. ---
**Author:** ![gwendee](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/35a633/32.png) [@gwendee](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/gwendee)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 6:44pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/12 "2012-09-19T18:44:13Z")
Procrastination and organization. The only things I finish are done at the absolutely last minute. Projects I start without firm deadlines linger forever. I have good intentions. I make lists and set alarms. Nothing seems to help. ---
**Author:** ![Rachellelogram](https://sea3.discourse-cdn.com/straightdope/user_avatar/boards.straightdope.com/rachellelogram/32/8689_2.png) [@Rachellelogram](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Rachellelogram)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 6:44pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/13 "2012-09-19T18:44:43Z")
The lasting effects of childhood sexual abuse, including obesity, anxiety, and depression. Not that I can know with any amount of certainty that I wouldn’t have been obese or anxious or depressed if the abuse hadn’t happened, of course. But it’s a well-known catalyst for those kinds of issues. And I feel fairly certain that I’m MORE obese/anxious/depressed than I would be, if it hadn’t happened. ---
**Author:** ![gallows\_fodder](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/8c91f0/32.png) [@gallows\_fodder](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/gallows_fodder)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 6:55pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/14 "2012-09-19T18:55:28Z")
Shyness. Anxiety. Grief. Boredom. The defense mechanism of retreating into a fantasy world instead of dealing with reality. (That’s a really hard mental habit to shake.) ---
**Author:** ![EmAnJ](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/e/d2c977/32.png) [@EmAnJ](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/EmAnJ)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 7:16pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/15 "2012-09-19T19:16:42Z")
Infertility is my biggest battle. ---
**Author:** ![Dung\_Beetle](https://sea3.discourse-cdn.com/straightdope/user_avatar/boards.straightdope.com/dung_beetle/32/7945_2.png) [@Dung\_Beetle](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Dung_Beetle)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 7:24pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/16 "2012-09-19T19:24:57Z")
Low self esteem and I’m polishing a nice inferiority complex as well. The other day my boss came up to me and thanked me for doing such a swell job, like I always do, with my usual excellence…in making a sign to hang on the refrigerator, reminding employees to take their food home. I damn near started to cry when I realized I was getting a pat on the head for the equivalent of coloring inside the lines. I always feel like the stupid one around here. I told my husband I wanted to get certified at something. Anything, as long as it involved having a license or a piece of paper that shows I can accomplish something. Long story short, he wasn’t very supportive and I’ve dropped it for now. My kids are about to go to college…if there are any resources in this family that’s where they need to be concentrated at the moment. ---
**Author:** ![Khadaji](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/k/9e8a1a/32.png) [@Khadaji](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/Khadaji)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 8:03pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/17 "2012-09-19T20:03:28Z")
Chronic fatigue. In the past 10 years I have had many operations and after one really bad one, I just never really recovered my energy. My surgeon kept saying that in another year, he didn’t think I’d even notice it, but it got worse and worse. We’ve done ever test we can think of. Although we did find deficiencies, correcting them did not (entirely) solve the problem. I’ve tried every energy supplement that is marketed. (OK, probably not _every_, but you get the idea.) Maybe this is just what 50 feels like… My doc has prescribed Adderall, which helps some days, but not always. I would pay a lot of money to feel good again. ---
**Author:** ![corkboard](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/c/e9bcb4/32.png) [@corkboard](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/corkboard)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 9:14pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/18 "2012-09-19T21:14:50Z")
> [@Dung\_Beetle](#): > > I told my husband I wanted to get certified at something. Anything, as long as it involved having a license or a piece of paper that shows I can accomplish something. Long story short, he wasn’t very supportive and I’ve dropped it for now. My kids are about to go to college…if there are any resources in this family that’s where they need to be concentrated at the moment. You’ve raised two kids to college age. That’s something. ---
**Author:** ![purplehorseshoe](https://sea3.discourse-cdn.com/straightdope/user_avatar/boards.straightdope.com/purplehorseshoe/32/2996_2.png) [@purplehorseshoe](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/purplehorseshoe)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 9:28pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/19 "2012-09-19T21:28:25Z")
> [@corkboard](#): > > You’ve raised two kids to college age. That’s something. Hell, that’s not even a little “something.” That’s a big “something!” Mine: my mother’s an overbearing, controlling psycho who doesn’t know what boundaries ARE let alone how to respect them. ---
**Author:** ![The\_Devil\_s\_Grandmother](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/t/74df32/32.png) [@The\_Devil\_s\_Grandmother](https://boards.straightdope.com/u/The_Devil_s_Grandmother)\ **Post date:** [September 19, 2012, 9:28pm UTC](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192/20 "2012-09-19T21:28:55Z")
Pain. It seems like some part of my body hurts everyday. I mostly push it to the back of my mind and ignore it, but that’s been getting harder to do the past few years. [Next page](https://boards.straightdope.com/t/what-is-your-ongoing-battle/635192.md?page=2)