Sqrl, I do not feel I am being deliberately obtuse. I understand that words have more than one meaning, and of course we all share the language, it is not my personal property, it belongs equally to you, and I am not deliberately being insulting, I am just trying to understand what you are saying but failing. Yes, I could have taken your earlier explanations at face value, but I think that’s too easy.
So, I understand if you say that when you say magick you really mean fantastic, etc. But then you go on to say that you really do believe in spells, except you don’t. Can you see how this might be confusing? I didn’t mean to imply that your philosophy is less coherent than a christian’s, far from it. But I can see that my sentence wasn’t clear. What I meant to say is that since there are so many christians we can pretty well categorize them after a while. We can categorize people as fundamentalists, catholics, deists, etc, since there are so many of them we can sort them out better.
But of course it is much more difficult with pagans, since every pagan has a different set of beleifs. When you say that you are a pagan it could mean that you beleive in the literal existance of various deities, or that you worship nature, or that you believe in a non-personal spiritual force, or any number of things. So if someone identifies themselves as a Christian it tells me a lot more about their beliefs than if they tell me they are a pagan.
And perhaps I am obtuse, but I still don’t exactly understand your religious beliefs. OK, you don’t believe in fireballs and curses and turning people into frogs, sure. But I believe that the various forces that exist in the universe are impersonal. Do you? Do you feel that, say, an ocean, or a lightning bolt has a personality of some kind? Do you believe in an extra-material component to human consciousness? If you do, then it might make sense that other things besides humans are conscious as well.
See, this is why I complained about the word magick. Perhaps if you used it in Pagan circles it would be clearer, but of course I’m not a pagan. Although I have a better idea what you mean NOW after much back and forth, I’m still unclear, since your views on spells and such are not quite understood. I think you mean that spells and prayer are simply ways to focus your mind and concentrate to achieve your goals. But is that all? If you pray to a personification of a tree, does that personification exist outside your mind? Or is it merely a convenient way of speaking? And of course after asking all this and understanding you, we must realize that the answers only apply to you, not to any other particular pagan, since there is no standard pagan world-view.
So, you may use magick in a way that does not offend my sensibilities, but I can only determine this after asking you extensively about it. If magick merely represents your attitude towards life, fine. But I imagine that most pagans believe that it is more.
And I’ve got to ask: why do your feel that these ceremonies and such are important? Perhaps it’s just that you like them, like I like christmas celebrations even though I am an atheist. But…why not call yourself an atheist rather than a pagan? Ok, you could be a pagan atheist, or a pagan agnostic, but…
When I talked about magical thinking being limiting and petty, what I was trying to get across was how silly it is to ascribe human personality to impersonal forces. Does thunder happen because some entity is angry? Or does it just happen? Is it accident or conspiracy? I’m trying to get you to turn around the common assumption that a scientific viewpoint robs the world of poetry, and to show you that to me, a “magickal” viewpoint robs the world of even more poetry, it obscures the real poetry of electrons and radiation and gravity and stars and galaxies and mitochondia and evolution. I’m saying that magic superficially appears more exhalted, but it is not, the real universe is so much more interesting and incredible than the ones our ancestors imagined, and I feel that by using the word “magick” you are trying to invoke that ancestral world. And that’s why I’m having a hard time accepting it.