This person also told me that though I was very open-minded to have tried to research so many different “exotic” religions, I couldn’t really call myself open-minded until I had given a fair chance to all. And that included boring old run of the mill Christianity.
This is the important point I think some people miss. I wanted religion. I didn’t think I wanted to really know God. I wanted rules and laws and regulations by which I could be counted righteous. But something stirred in my soul that day… a barrenness, and a hunger. I had lived so long without any connection to God…
How do you scientifically explain such a hunger? You know you’re hungry when you feel hungry (for food, I mean). You don’t take a blood test and measure your blood sugar or stomach enzymes. You just realize something is missing from your life. And I thought about all the religions I had read into, and to be fair, I tried again to “find God” in them, to satisfy my hunger. The more rules I read, the further and further I felt from happiness. “I can never do all this,” I said.
And then I read the Bible, from the front cover to the back (not too hard since I had already read the Pentateuch–the first five books–when considering Judaism!). And the more I read, the more I could see the God standing behind the laws. God said, “Love your neighbor as yourself.” Okay, this God values humility and service. God said, “The Lord your God, the Lord is One.” All right, this God values unity. God said, “If I can do any amazing thing, but have not love, my life is meaningless.” So He values love, over all other things. And that really hit me hard.
The God of the Bible values love. Love is patient, love is kind. It doesn’t envy, it doesn’t boast, it doesn’t seek it’s own good, but the good of others…
The more I read, the more I realized that it is not God who hurts us, it is people’s sin (sin being another word for “unlikeness to God”). The further we get from him, the more pain we cause one another. Somewhere in the middle of 1 Corinthians chapter 13, I gave my heart and life to Jesus forever. Because I knew, without a shadow of doubt, that He loved me.
As I continued in faith, I looked for more and more proofs that God is real. Proofs for God are… well, there isn’t anything I can tell you to MAKE you believe. I can give a list of interesting references, including one book titled The Signature of God. It summarizes some, if not proofs, very solid evidences that the Bible is true. For example, in the pentateuch, God gave the Israelites all manner of rules for washing and ceremonial purity. He instructed them to wash their hands and isolate themselves if they had certain illnesses. And yet, in those days, they had no understanding of germs and how they could be transmuted to one another. Many contemporaries of the time thought all illnesses were caused by demons and other things. Could you really tell me that Moses thought up the whole washing thing on his own, without the guidance of God?