Chronic pain patient here. I have been on opoids for years, just about everything you can name. Demerol, Fentynal and currently on morphine. I take 90mg of morphine a day and percocet every 4 hours while awake to control the pain. I am joining the thread just to give some perspective from a long time user.
First, the drugs.
Demerol was given to me in the hospital when I first came in after my workplace accident and it was used in high doses after my the back surgeries. Demerol has been the only drug that has gotten me “high”, totally sent to the moon. I was recovering for 12 days in the hospital after my third surgery and I got a Demerol shot every four hours, plus I was on a self administer pump for in between. I can honestly say that besides pot, I have never done an illegal drug, but 6 or 7 days into my recovery I could easily have taken the route to become an addict. The Demerol gave me such a feel good high that I actually craved it. I would count the hours and then minutes until my next dosage and my wife said I would push the button for the self administrator pump over and over, even though it wouldn’t give me anymore. About day 9 of recovery I started to hallucinate very badly, but I didn’t want to tell anyone because I was afraid they wouldn’t give me anymore Demerol! They found out when I called 911 from my hospital bed to report a gang of undead trying to kill me. After release from the hospital, the doctors put me on Vicodin for the pain. I had time to think about the experience and it literally scared the shit out of me, thinking how easy and almost uncontrollable my desire was for the Demerol. I rely don’t know if I could be strong enough to resist, I have never felt a good in my life as I did on the Demerol.
Fentynal, the patch they put me on to manage pain worked for a few months, but I soon built up a tolerance and the pills were doing nothing to dull the pain. My doctor at the time put me on the Fentynal patch. It was amazing! I never got high from it, but it worked magic with the pain. For the first time in years I was 100% pain free. It worked for about a year then tolerance kicked in and they had to up the dose. I eventually ended up on a 75mg (microgram) patch, but that was losing it’s effectiveness. I really didn’t like the patch as sometimes the medication would run out early and leave me in horrible pain, the patch was supposed to last 72 hours. The really scary part was that I was always afraid the patch would fall off and would find its way and come in contact with one of the family members. Even a brief contact with Fentynal by a person who is not opioid tolerant can be fatal. I found a new doctor who got me off it and on to morphine.
Morphine: currently I am on morphine extended release 90mg twice a day, with percocets every 4-6 hours for breakthrough pain. The morphine has worked well, has been very effective and predictable. But, I am quickly developing a tolerance and it seems about once per year the dosage has to be increased. This concerns me as I am only 45 and I wonder if the doctors will be able to control my pain if I make it to 70.
I am concerned by those who have said that their doctors are managing their long term pain with drugs like Vicodin. This is the wrong way to go as you well build tolerance to it quickly and the high doses of Tylenol are dangerous long term (yes, I know percocet has it to, but I have limited choices for breakthrough pain.)
The drugs make me so tired that trying to live a normal life is very difficult. The lethargy has gotten so bad that my doctor has me on amphetamine to keep me awake during the day. I also have to take weekly injections of testosterone as the long term use of the narcotics has made my body shut down testosterone production.
I realize I have been l long winded, but perhaps this answers part of the OP’s question. There is much more to continued narcotic use than just keeping pain at bay or being high. It destroys your life by taking away all of your energy and the rising tolerance puts one at risk of repository failure. The drugs for me are a necessity, but why anyone would want to enter this circle of hell by choice is beyond me. I am very tired, I hope that my response was on topic and understandable.