I saw an opthamologist today about having cataract surgery. Generally, I would say it was an uncomfortable meeting – he did not inspire any warm fuzzy feelings of safety and confidence in me. But I have heard nothing but good about his surgical skills.
What stuck out was this – IIRC, it was the only exam I’ve ever had with no directions about where to look as he shined lights in my eyes and observed my eyes though some kind of scope.
All the other exams I had, the doc told me things like “Look up”, “look at this point”, etc., as my head sat in that contraption and they shined in various lights and looked around.
This guy just looked and moved the lights around silently, where and when he pleased. My eyes were blinking and tearing up, and a couple of times I had to look away because it was painful. I asked him, “Where should I be looking?” He responded, “You’re doing fine.”
OTOH, I had just had the same exam a couple of weeks back by the optometrist who referred me to him, and this new guy had that report. Also, before the surgeon came in, some other technician had done some preliminary exam, complete with eye shining and instructions to me. So maybe the surgeon was looking for something else, maybe even how my eyes react under some distress.
There were other, er, I’m not sure what to call them – disappointments as well. I wanted to discuss the possibility of using the newest technology – so-called accommodating lenses – and he says they are too new, and mentioned some problems, and offered to send me on to another doc if I wanted to go that route as he wouldn’t do it.
And another exchange about anaesthesia when he seemed pretty dismissive and almost contemptuous about questions I had about doing the procedure under a general rather than local one.
What it boils down to is that I’m trying to decide whether my little mental alarm bells have any basis in reality. If I look around for some surgeon I’m more comfortable with, I will undoubtedly set back the clock on getting the surgery I really need – in the last 4 months, my eyes have gotten so bad that I can’t drive or read books. And it’s getting worse fast.
So help me decide if my jitters should be put aside or acted on.