Yes, you aren’t my doctor, I’m not your patient, your responses are not to be taken in lieu of an official Dr. visit.
In brief:
Sometime in the first or second week of June I noticed a pain or pressure in my jaw – under my tongue, on the right side. It would appear for a few hours, then disappear. This happened for a few days before I decided to go to my doctor. They sent me to the local urgent care clinic due the fact that they didn’t have any opening for a couple weeks.
At urgent care the Dr. felt around my shoulders, neck and jaw and felt nothing (I cannot feel anything from the outside, only the sense of or presence of something from inside. Even poking around my mouth I can’t feel anything). The urgent care Dr. attributed it to allergies, but advised me to keep an eye on it. I made an appointment with my PCP and at that appointment (end of June) he ordered a CBC and Chem 14, Liver test as well as an ultrasound of my neck. The CBC, Liver test and chem 14 came back with everything normal except Bilirubin was slightly elevated, which my PCP (who is a PA, not an MD) attributed to an error in the lab, since he felt that there was no reason for it to be elevated and everything else was normal.
Since I could still feel this thing, (it feels like a s small lump somewhere under my tongue) he ordered a CT scan. The CT scan was done and all findings negative. The CT scan looked at the sinuses, throat, salivary glands, lymph nodes, and thyroid. I don’t have the report in front of me, but it looked at some other things that are in the same area. My PCP basically said ignore it for six months, reduce stress and lose weight, and come back after Christmas if it’s still bothering me. I asked him point-blank what HE would do in this situation, and he said he would do exactly that – get on with his life, while adopting a wait-and see approach.
Sometimes, like today, I can feel a pressure in the back of my throat and maybe my sinuses, almost like a bit of indigestion or an allergy attack. Sometimes I feel pressure on my neck or around my collarbone, where wearing a t-shirt feels like a turtleneck. It’s slightly pronounced, but not painful, when I swallow.
Some additional info: I’m a mathematics major, two and a half years into my degree with another year to go just to finish my associate’s degree. I don’t like math at the moment and am having a very serious crisis of faith – it’s too late to change my major, I’ve put too much time and money into this and I don’t like it. It’s causing my to literally cry with the stress and fear of failure.
My wife and I recently moved. We moved from a big house in the woods by the river to a small mobile home on a dirt lot next to a busy and dangerous road. I don’t like it. The previous tenants left it dirty and we’ve been scrubbing mold out of the corners since we moved in (I wonder if this is a contributing factor, but we moved in the last weekend of June. My symptoms, albeit not the pressure in my throat, began before that). I question our ability to pay our bills and feed our two children.
At least three people I know are suffering from cancer, and a fourth may be – he gets tested this week. Two of the three are terminal.
So. Two medical professionals say they can’t fell anything. Two medical imaging appointments showed nothing of concern. PCP says don’t worry about it. Urgent care Dr. said it’s likely allergies. Both of them advocate a wait-and see approcah. My Ct scan was two weeks ago today, so it hasn’t been long.
Right now I’m sitting at my desk at school, tears on my face. I’m freaking out. Something is wrong with me, I know this. Maybe it’s depression… I’ve suffered from depression since I was a teenager and this move has brought what was background noise into something that is a daily struggle. Maybe it’s allergies. I usually have hay fever in the spring, but I feel it in my lungs, not my throat and sinuses.
I don’t know what to do. For the first time in my life I’m turning to prayer. I need some advice.
Lancia, aka Nathan