[Just needing to vent a little.]
There is something to be said for having a physician with a poor bedside manner. They may act like a jerk but one thing is for sure: they don’t mince words.
Three months ago a friend of mine was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. We go to school together, so I sat ringside as she underwent multiple surgeries and suffered a slow recovery from each one. She was determined to attend as many lectures as she could, so we all saw her on her worst – and thankfully best – days.
Saturday the 18th someone I know as a casual acquaintance (friend of a friend sort of thing) posted to FB that she was going in for some “scans”, and that the doctor was treating “it” as cancer. No further information at that time, and it was clear that the post was meant to provide more info for friends that knew more than the FB denizens.
This past Tuesday, a week ago today, my mother called me and informed me that an old friend of the family was diagnosed with liver cancer a couple weeks ago. When asked how bad it was, the oncologist stated point-blank “on a scale of 1-10, it’s an 8”. This woman, and her entire family, has been very close to us our entire lives. Her son and I grew up together. He was the best man at my wedding.
Saturday I learned from some people at church that a very prominent, popular member of the local healthcare community has been diagnosed with cancer as well. He attends the same church, but has been absent for several months.
That evening I logged onto FB and the FOAF posted that it had been diagnosed as cancer and the doctors believe it may have spread to her lymph nodes.
Four people I know, two of which I consider close personal friends have been diagnosed with cancer in the past three months. I learned about three of them in the past week.
I’ve seen more people die than I can count, and long ago learned to emotionally distance myself, as best I could, from death. But this time… I don’t know. Perhaps Providence is telling me to find a different line of work.
My wife and I are being evicted from our home and both of us are struggling in school. I was stressed, but then this… makes our troubles seem so insignificant.
So. Fuck cancer.