Thank you! I’m looking forward to joining Am Yisrael; although I’m still working on the halachos of Shabbos, and it will probably be close to a year before I’m officially converted.
**EJsGirl, ** I’m glad I have your permission, because I don’t want to hijack your thread. Actually my conversion story started out very innocently. I was browsing the internet one day and saw something about Brooklyn’s Satmar Chassidim. I had never heard of them, which in itself piqued my interest. I started learning about them and other Chassidic sects, then Orthodoxy, and finally Judaism as a whole.
I’ve always had an interest in comparative theology (several of my friends are Muslims, and I bother them regularly with questions about the Qur’an and classical Arabic), so I began learning basics about the Torah. I learned to read Hebrew with the help of a sympathetic Chabad rabbi and numerous internet audio files. I attended services at Orthodox, Conservative, and Reform synagogues. I began learning brochos “just to broaden my mind”, as I told myself. As I became more serious, I read more about the faith in general (usually from an Orthodox viewpoint, since that’s what I was used to). After a year or so, I realized I was in love and could not live without Judaism, even though I hadn’t been “looking” and had been perfectly happy as a religious Catholic. I still can’t describe exactly what happened, or why; but I feel like I’ve been given a great gift, and life would be only a pale shadow of beautiful if I could not live as a Jew.
I count myself lucky because the foundations of my study have been from an Orthodox perspective and the people who originally drew me to Judaism (although they probably didn’t intend to) were all either Litvish or Chassidish, leaving me much less to learn when I finally undergo the Orthodox conversion. From the beginning I always just assumed that if I wanted to be Jewish, I had to be Orthodox. I never even knew there was such a thing as a Reform or Conservative conversion until about a year into my studies; since then, I’ve made it my responsibility to learn about these viewpoints as well.
As for sect membership – At first I wanted to be Chassidic, but after visiting several chassidishe families in Brooklyn, I have concerns that this way of life might be too strict for me and that, as an outsider, I would be very isolated socially. I really admired the intelligence and warmth of those people I had the privilege to meet, particularly one Breslover family. In any case, it’s unlikely that I would be completely accepted by any chassidish community, with the possible exception of the Lubavitchers. For this reason I’m leaning more toward a Litvishe or even Modern Orthodox lifestyle, which will probably depend on which community’s rabbi agrees to oversee my conversion.