Yikes! I just got back from shopping for a new pair of jeans. I’m a student and very poor, so it’s been awhile since I’ve bought new clothes. But my old pair (size 10) were feeling a little snug, so I finally gave in and headed out to the mall to pick up a size 12.
Size 12 doesn’t fit. I’m a size 14 now!! I knew I had gained a little weight, but not that much! (I refuse to get on a scale…too depressing.)
And it’s entirely my fault, too. That makes it worse in my mind. My eating habits are deplorable, and my workout routine nonexistant. If I was a size 14 but in good shape, I wouldn’t mind so much. But I’m unhealthy and that’s just yuck.
So that’s it. Things are going to change. I probably will be having a wedding within the next year or so, and I WILL be wearing a size ten, not a fourteen. (No, no ring yet, but we talk about it a lot. I know it’s coming, it’s just a matter of time.)
The sad thing is, this isn’t the first time this has happened to me. I had a drastic weight loss about two years ago when I went through a major depression and just COULDN’T eat. At that time, I went down to a size 8, sometimes I could even fit into a size 6. I thought that was the silver lining to the cloud of depression! After I sought therapy and went on my meds, I went back up to a healthy 10 and hovered there for awhile. Now this.
I don’t plan on starving myself again, since I’m actually very happy these days, and I want to be healthy. And I know if I try something drastic I’ll just give up again.
So here’s the game plan:
–A brisk mile walk at least three times a week. I will up this once I’m in a little bit better shape.
–Work on toning my arms with weights and abs with sit-ups three times a week
–No more potato chips. (A big weakness of mine.)
–No more sweets in general.
–NO MORE FAST FOOD.
–A lot more fruits & veggies.
–No more pop. Only water. Ever.
I’m trying not to make it too rigid, 'cause I don’t think I’d be able to stick with it if I did. I’m just going to try to be more aware of what I’m eating.
Sorry this has been so long. I just wanted to get it down in writing. Also, I would greatly appreciate any advice or tips, especially on how to keep myself motivated. (I thought about taping a picture of the wedding dress I want up on the fridge, but I don’t want to totally spook my sweetie! :D) Also, should I get a scale to keep better track of how I’m doing? Or would that just impede any progress I might be making?
Thanks, guys.