Ok… a few more repsonses and clarifications…
I have noticed that there seems to be a connection of something like this:
Those who believe in God attribute their positive feelings of God to added proof of the existence of God.
Let me throw a twist in this one. Sometimes I get downright angry at God. There is so much that I don’t understand about His ways. My inability to understand makes me… well… almosts furious. So… this is a set of negative emotions. But it it no way detracts from the fact that I believe that God exists, and that He is active in our lives.
In response to RTF…
In doing my best to remember back 13 years to my “conversion experience”… I don’t believe there were many immediate changes in my life. I continued to drink for a while (not a good thing at the age of 14 and 15); I continued to chase after the boys and attempt to get them to sleep with me (but I remained a virgin), and was …well… your average rebellious teenager. The only change that I remember was, I started going to a Bible study once a week about a year after my experience. It wasn’t until I hit college 4 years later that I started taking real moves to change my life. Notice the difference here… I didn’t say that God made me change my life. I chose to follow Him, even after He had given me what I personally consider a miracle. There was no other big event between my miracle and college.
As far as experiencing God’s presence… I did not. As a matter of fact… for a couple of years after the experience… I tried to come oup with every logical explanation for the fact that I was still alive since I hadn’t noticed any earth-shattering presence of God. I had to reason myself into my faith. I used my mind and my brain and ended up here. (Not here as in SD )
I don’t remember reading the Bible any other time other than the once a week Bible studies I went to while in high school. Parts of the Bible STILL don’t make sense to me. Go figure. But it becomes more clear if I sit down and read it and use my head. I really do try not to put my common sense or intelligence on the shelf when it comes to my faith, my understanding of the Bible, or my understanding of God. If I did that, my testimony would be worthless.
Beth