American conservatism has exhausted its credibility

I am a conservative who sees Trump as a narcissistic idiot with a big mouth. I still can’t believe he was able to win over so many people. I made a huge miscalculation. As far as Republican values go, I see one type of republican on the news and a complete different type in my daily life. I really don’t know what to believe anymore. I know very few that are homophobic or racist. I use to be a lot more verbal talking against Trump but the loyalty to him is evident and I have recently dropped my association with the republican party. I need to figure out what party suits me. I have no problem with most issues of democrats I just feel most of them are grossly misrepresented and appeal too much to emotions.