About 2 years ago i went through a nasty period of hypochondria. I imagened all kinds of symptoms ranging from heart attacks to brain tumors and lung cancer.
After about a year of this, it all went away. I never saw a therapist or recieved any sort of medication. I believe i rationalized myself out of it somehow.
I still worry way too about my health, but it’s nothing like it used to be. No specific illnesses or symptons.
After about 4-5 months of feeling just fine, i started getting this feeling of being keyed up, and generally feeling weird. An “off feeling” is the best explanation i can give, a bit like having low blood sugar (which runs in my family). In the follwing weeks i started having panic attacks. About 4-5 incidents in a period of about a month.
A few months ago the attacks went away. The “off feeling” and feeling of being keyed up remained however.
These days it’s getting better and better. I can now go for days feeling practically normal. Almost. See, this damn, very vague, sensation of nausea (or something like it) remains. It’s really, really vague, but still enough to constantly remind me and make me think about how i feel (an increased physical awareness, in a bad way).
On final thing. I’ve always been getting slightly depressed every winter. This year it’s way worse though. I blame it on the other stuff, and counting on it going away shortly, when spring arives.
This damn nausea-like thing and occasional “off feeling”. What is it? From too much worry and anxiety. Or something else? Anything i should see a doc about? It’s driving me insane (in a manner of speaking :)).
Thanks for reading (it helped writing it down).