Im glad that this this thread caught my eye!!!
I share this same belief of spirituality that we are all “god”. I was raised as a catholic, went to catholic school, went to church and all that stuff. Then i got older and i noticed that there were just WAY too many things about my faith that didnt add up. In high school i studied some other religions and noticed that they all claimed to be THE religion. To make a long story short, i spent a couple years thinking about this and really questioning wether a god existed and i came to the conlusion that a single god which ruled everything did not exist. I was an atheist.
I left the subject alone for a while assuming that when i died i would just completely disappear from all form of existance. Sure this was a little uncomfortable to think especially after being raised to think that when i died, i would live eternally, but my mind was strictly scientific now. I felt almost betrayed by spirituality and i left it behind.
My scientific frame of mind was actually what led me back to the spiritual path. As i learned more about science and the universe, I was amazed by the complexities and the possibilities and things that are still a mystery. I was in awe of the fact that ANYTHING even exists at all!!! It seemed to me that there is some driving force keeping all things in harmony and that everything fit together neatly in a sort of puzzle despite seemingly chaotic events. I now believe that every person, animal, tree, rock, idea, tool, machine, system, cycle, synthesis, etc. is part of “god”. But not “god” in the normal undersanding, just a word to call the collection of all things and thier interconnected nature. No supreme being…
Thought excercise: try to imagine the absence of everything… it will truly blow your mind if you focus hard enough on it. Imagine no earth, no planets, no stars, no light, no energy or matter, no forces such as gravity, not even an empty space in which to imagine it, its impossible to comprehend… And it helps ME realize how amazing this existence really is, i hope it helps someone else…
So i still dont have it figured out and probably never will but i am more content in the fact that life has some meaning and that life evolves. I feel lucky to be human because i think humans play a special role in this evolution of nature and “god”. I think there is some form of afterlife but i speculate that it is completely out of range with our ability to understand it. But I do think we kind of dissolve into the universe in some way to become more connected to everything else…