So it’s been 3 years… time for an update.
(I’ll stop calling the protagonist ‘Bob’ as it was always obvious it was me)
The situation has declined in some ways, but significantly improved in others…
I’m still in the same job; some of the pressure has eased off a bit, but mostly that was because of additional hard work I put in to deal with root causes, rather than just fighting the fires that my management peers were throwing at me.
There is still the same problem with my own line management not having any working concept of capacity management or prioritisation, and therefore saying stupid things like “No, all 14 of these projects are very important! Get them all done!”.
Most of that comes from one character, but he’s the MD, and he’s my direct line manager. he’s supposed to be retiring soon, but ‘soon’ is a sort of perpetually extending window.
in more positive news, I have more recently managed to actually use my annual leave - mostly by booking flights to make it harder to argue that I should just cancel or postpone my arrangements. They still tried to coerce me, but in the end, I just said “Look, I’m walking out of that door on Friday at 5, If you decide that means I can’t come back, I’m still walking out of that door”. The crisis turned out not to be so urgent after I said that.
Also, and most significantly, my YouTube channel (Atomic Shrimp) has experienced significant growth and looks like it could turn into a full time income quite soon.
I actually just paid off my mortgage today (using YouTube revenue), and that mortgage was the key financial commitment that was making me feel reluctant to do anything that might risk me losing my job. If I lose my primary income now, I still have a roof over my head. I own it.
That alone is like a huge pressure valve - I know now I can quit if I need to, and just take up a part time or lower pressure job in order to pay a few bills.
And interestingly, that sudden release of pressure makes it a more interesting idea to stick around in this job for a while, and see what happens. Funny how things work out…