Inspired by this post in another thread:
To me, if I have to work to relax, that’s not what I call relaxing.
Most of my productivity comes from the first quarter of the day, because that’s when I’m well rested. After I use up all my energy I can’t get it back again for the rest of the day because I don’t know how to relax. Focusing on relaxing hasn’t worked. I know it works for some people, but I’ve tried some techniques from various Youtube videos and none of them have worked.
I think the problem is that whenever my mind isn’t occupied it starts thinking about death, anxiety, and past humiliating experiences. So my solution thus far has been to occupy it with law school textbooks, movies, and exercise. An idle mind is something I’ve never learned to deal with.
Is it possible for me to be at rest and not think about crazy and depressing shit?