Evert once in a while, I feel the same way that I did when I was 19 0r 20-feeling that the world is my oyster, and the horizon is limitless. Of corse, cold reality intrudes-but for a few minutes, I feel great! I can remember looking out from my college dorm room window, and thinking about the future.
Is there any way to recapture this feeling?
The closest I get is when I hear a song that reminds me of my younger self.
And even then, it’s blended with so much nostalgia–which is bittersweet by its very nature–that I don’t know if I have ever really recaptured the absolute feeling.
Youthful optimism, however, is usually just a joyride away for me. Something about driving by myself, with the windows down and the radio blaring, makes me think the entire world is mine to conquer.
I always feel like that when I first fall in love.
But that gets to be a rather wearying way to go about it after awhile.
I don’t know why, but driving on the highway for long periods on long cool autumn nights always makes me dream. I think it’s because I used to love going on trips at night and just looking out the window.
I still dream…my dreams though aren’t as ambitious as they used to be.