Which is probably why I kinda though I should have used the word transgendered instead in my comment (although obviously I am not going to tell YOU what you should call yourself). I keep forgetting (as I had meant to in the past). Not like I am going to make a difference.
I’m curious though - and somewhat surprised that you prefer transsexual. I don’t know you that well, but my understanding was that you weren’t only a transsexual woman, bought also a fairly big advocate/volunteer (I think I remember reading you helped other transgendered make their transition (too man “tran” words) by lending moral support and accompanying them when they first go out in public). So I figured you’ve put tons of thought into this versus me who knows very little.
So back on topic (which really isn’t the original topic). I actually know two transgendered people (one I knew VERY well, but we lost touch). She actually was the first person that explained to me what the deal was. I consider myself fairly enlightened and open minded, but I had always assumed that “guys” who dressed up as girls were gay.
It wasn’t until we had this conversation where it clicked for me:
Her: “I just feel so alone, I will never find someone to love me”
Me: “What do you mean - you just told me you had two different guys that were really into having sex with you and obviously enjoyed your company?”
Her:
(and she wasn’t saying this in a mean way - she totally opened my eyes to something I didn’t even understand existed - the “!” indicates passion - not anger)
“You don’t get it! These guys just were dating me cause they want a freak! The want someone that looks like a girl that has a cock! I don’t want that! I just want a NORMAL straight guy who loves me for who I feel I am - a straight woman!”
Me: “Oh - I get it now!”
I am dense sometimes. Up until that time - I had assumed he (as I saw him before) was gay and this was some of fetish for “him”. I didn’t get why “he” wanted to be called “she” and use a female name - but hey I went along cause - well why not. Then
it all made sense.
We actually worked together for a while - in a very male occupation - 100% of the field workforce was men that drove trucks to various calls. I was somewhat surprised and delighted that not one single person at our job gave her a hard time when she bravely showed up one day dressed as a woman. There were certainly some surprised looks and questions - and a little bit of giggling, but no one was the least but mean. I don’t think most understood, but they were like “hey whatever makes ‘him’ happy”.
Even our boss was like “well that took a lot of balls (having the courage to show up dressed as a woman) - ‘he’ does a great job so I don’t care what makeup he uses or wig he wears - I don’t know what to say if customers complain - but I’ll just worry about that when it comes up”
This was like a little over 10 years ago - anyway my point was two fold - one sometimes people can pleasantly surprise you (I thought their reaction was pretty good considering the awareness at the time). Two, it was fairly obvious to me - that most of them thought the same way I originally did - that this was a gay guy that liked to play dress up.
I still notice this - and obviously you have 1 billion times more experience than I do - so I am assuming this isn’t news to you.
So sorry to drone on, but my question is basically - would you mind sharing why you prefer transexual vs transgender? Your answer seemed to suggest something along the lines of it being a post-op vs pre-op thing, but I don’t want to put words in your mouth. I am not at all suggesting that your word is “wrong” - I just would have guessed that people in the transgendered/transexual community would have prefered “gender” vs “sexual” as it might help to remove some of the misunderstanding about this being a gay/straight issue.
Or maybe my understanding of what it means to be transexual is flawed. I was assuming based on the two data points I have (and stuff I have casually run across - and from listening to Dan Savage) that it is a person who feels they are “trapped” in the other genders body. They can be gay or straight - or even asexual, but a transgendered female (someone born with a penis) might be gay, but if she was - she would prefer to have sex with a female.
And I apologize if the question is too personal - you won’t hurt my feeling if you say NOYB.