I drowned yesterday, around 3 in the afternoon. I never had a chance. The water in the middle of the harbor was just too cold, the current too strong. Without a life jacket, in choppy water, I died without any hope of rescue. I sank without a trace.
They found my sailboat this morning, smashed on the jetties. A shoe, the contents of a cooler, a foam cushion, my truck at the boat ramp with the empty trailer. Tomorrow I will wash up in the marsh. Early next week I will be buried. I was 47.
No one will ever know what happened.
The gust of wind that capsized my small sailboat came up suddenly. The choppy harbor waters just off Ft. Sumter lifted the boat, negating the rudder for that crucial moment and the boat heeled over. I knew full well that the next moment the boat would turtle, mast down. I would not be able to right it again if that happened, with full sail I simply lack the weight. I dove under the sideways boat and came up by the keel. Just as the boat was about to turtle, I grabbed the centerboard and hung on. Bracing my legs on the slippery hull, pulled as hard as I could, using the centerboard as a lever. The boat began to right itself.
The wind was still gusting and the jib was still sheeted. This meant that the boat would begin to take off the moment it was righted. It was crucial that I get on board, grab the tiller and loose the sheet (allowing the sail to flap) before the boat tipped again. I was already exhausted. I had fought against the current for the last two hours, trying to avoid being washed out to sea. The hours of fighting the waves, the gusty wind and the heavy current had already taken a huge toll.
As the boat righted, it began to take off. I grabbed for the side. And whiffed. The boat left me, alone, in cold choppy surf with no life jacket, no one in sight and absolutely no chance of survival. I would never be able to reach the rapidly moving boat in the ripping current. I was screwed.
Except.
The rudimentary outboard I had recently installed stuck off the stern by a foot. I grabbed it as the boat pulled away. Another few inches and I would not have made it. If the boat had flipped going the other way, if I had not bought the motor, if I had slipped.
As it is, I feel like I was hit by a truck. My ribs are badly bruised from belly flopping into the boat. Every part of my body hurts. Even after the righting of the boat, I had another 3 hours of hard sailing against heavy current, but I made it back. It was a 10 hour ordeal. The rest of the trip I was totally on edge at every change in the wind.
I should be dead. Seriously.
Wear a life jacket. In fact, you can wear it on this boat. It’s for sale.