I wake up in the morning, feeling my body leaden and unwilling to move. My eyelids are heavy and refuse to stay open. Just a few more minutes, I assure myself, and drift off to sleep, only to wake up to realize that a half-hour has passed, and I am still feeling the same.
The cycle can repeat 2-3 times each morning. Ultimately the fear of losing my job jolts me awake enough to get to the kitchen and make myself some coffee.
Sometimes I have been late for work, and on rare occasions, believe it or not, I have slept through the morning and woken up past lunch hour, and have had to invent excuses to give my boss (who by that time had realized I wasn’t turning up for office that day).
Ideally I would like to wake up and have the Sun switch on inside my head, make me feel light and energetic, ready to take on the world. Since this is asking for too much, at the least I would like to be able to sit up and drag my ass to the bathroom to shake off the cobwebs. On many days even this has been unattainable; I plop right back into bed promising to wake up in 5 minutes, which I don’t, of course.
Has anybody dealt successfully with this debilitating problem? I have tried bright lights, loud music, and always keep the 5-hour energy shot by my bedside. They do help, but not nearly enough. (Life was bearable when I still had my supply of Modafinil.)
Could there be an organic basis to this condition (if it is a condition)?
Suggestions are most welcome, TIA!