Don’t flatter yourself. A pathology doesn’t imply above average intellect. Clearly.
Nothing about you is deep or covert or carefully laid out. It’s actually all right there, in plain sight (as it were):
The need for attention. The insecurity. The need to impress others with inconsequential accomplishments. The overcompensation for feelings of grinding mediocrity by constantly trying to make yourself stand out as smart, unique and interesting. Mommy issues. Controlling. Manipulative. Some weird sex issues I don’t even what to know about.
That’s just my read.