I am under most circumstances a very calm and rational person. Heights don’t bother me, enclosed spaces are fine. I am pierced and a regular plasma donor, so needles hold no terror for me. I like rats (used to keep them as pets) and snakes (my sister had one). I also like most insects, especially ants and bees, I am a little nervous around bumblebees, but one stung me just last month, so I expect that to go away with time. I am very fond of spiders. However…
Water. I am deathly afraid of drowning. One of my earliest memories was frolicking about in the kiddie pool, then suddenly being underwater and not being able to resurface. Fortuntely, my father was on hand to save me. Ever since then, I have not been able to put my head below water. The ocean, where a wave can break over your head with little or no warning, is absolutely terrifying. I have not been swimming in years. I even hate taking showers.
Also, once when I was about 6 or so, I was drinking a nice, cold glass of milk that must have been past its expiration date, because when I got to the bottom of the glass, I felt this lump of something go down my throat, and then there was this NASTY taste. Bleah!!! After that, I could still drink milk, but I’d always leave a little bit at the bottom, just in case another one of those… things was lurking down there.
Roller-coasters are fine, even if they do make me sick. Roller coasters that go upside-down are okay. What I can’t deal with are the roller-coaster-like rides that go upside down… and then stop, leaving you suspended, heels over head, hundreds of feet above the ground. (insert shudder here)
And finally, the biggest one, speaking. I don’t just mean public speaking, I mean opening my mouth and talking to people, period. There are people I’ve known for years who swear I’m mute. I can be perfectly eloquent and loquacious in writing or over the www, but in person, silence. I’m not sure if it is a fear of speaking itself, or the fear of people in general, but it’s there, and it’s real, and it can make my life a living hell if I let it. None of this applies to my family, people I’ve known for a long time, or those people, who for whatever reason, I’m comfortable enough around to overcome this, but for the most part, all you’ll get out of me is " ".