Once, I had a dream where there was some kind of war. The details are fuzzy, but it was definately a war. We had old time weapons–a rifle with a bayonet.
We were fighting this war, and there was a battle. I was fighting. And there was this guy I knew, a guy I hadn’t seen for years, really, and he was on the other side.
I killed him. It was graphic. I basically bashed his head in repeatedly with the butt-end of the gun, and stabbed him with the bayonet.
This was one of those full-sensory dreams. You know, one of the ones where you can feel such subtleties as vibrations, can hear the most minute sounds. . .
. . .the worst thing was, I didn’t want to kill him. It was like something was making me do it. . .except part of me was enjoying it. . .
. . .right after I killed him, I woke up, so scared. I could see the alarm clock, so I know I was awake. I tried to call out to my mom (I was 17 at the time).
Nothing. Couldn’t talk. Couldn’t move. Sleep paralysis.
I was so shaken the next day that I couldn’t go to school. I mean, it was so real, it was like it actually happened. I’d gotten enough sleep, but I was emotionally drained. A mess.
Interestingly enough, I saw the guy a couple of weeks later. He was working at Burger King. I couldn’t help thinking, in a small part of my mind, hey, didn’t I kill him? Isn’t he dead?
On a somewhat lighter note, I had an interesting half-awake dream last weekend. I was at my SOs, and I was sick. We were both having trouble sleeping. I’d nodded off at some point, but was so sick that I was mildly wimpering or something (gods, I was miserable. Stuffed nose, sinus pains, and body aches. I wanted to claw my own face off). This caused my SO, who was still awake, to hold me.
I was grateful, vaguely, I really was. However, for some reason, my half-awake mind constructed a dream where he’d gotten me into the creative writing class I wanted back at school.
So I blearily thanked him for “getting me creative writing.”
He figured I was sleep talking. Nope, I was actually thinking. It was just messed up.