You can get home TMS kits for a few hundred dollars although I don’t know if they’re still sold and if so if they are any good.
For a long time TMS was purely experimental but I think it was FDA approved this or last year for treatment resistant depression. MST, being an alternative electroshock, I don’t think is as widely available and it certainly wouldn’t be the first thing a shrink would recommend you try.
Have you ever seem someone to get a diagnosis? Sometimes this doesn’t really help except to give you a rubric under which you can categorize all of your oddities, idiosyncrasies and peccadilloes. But most of the time it can at least give you an idea of what you need in terms of treatment.
You don’t have to be completely debilitated to try to get some help you know.
I had a brief exchange of emails over a year ago with
Wang, Zhong Lin http://www.nanoscience.gatech.edu/zlwang/
He said that sending nanoscale generators in one’s brains is one of the goals in their studies. Does anyone have more detailed information about this?