We’ve all heard of fear of failure. So who has heard of/experienced fear of success?
Speaking to my agent, it sounds like he’s 99.99% sure my book will be published, and he’s going to start shopping it around to publishers as soon as the retainer is paid. Sounds great, right? Actually, I’m scared to death of what will happen if it gets published. I dunno why; just this vague feeling of dread came over me as I was thinking about what it would be like seeing my magnum opus on the shelves of my local Barnes & Noble. Like, on some level it would be a little overwhelming. On another level I’ve become so accustomed to failure that maybe I’m not emotionally prepared to succeed. It’s almost as if I fear success.
Looking over the above paragraph, it seems like so much rambling. It’s hard to put into words what I’m feeling, so…
…anybody have any idea what I’m talking about? Ever experienced it?