That all sounds very unpleasant and stressful. And I’ve been there,. (although maybe not as often as you have.)
- it’s standard practice that one isn’t allowed to tell people if you know they will be laid off. I had a really awkward situation where my employee was being let go (as was I) but she was on vacation, so she hadn’t heard, yet. And I wasn’t allowed to tell her. She wrote me a chatty, “I’ll be in on Monday, what’s up?” email. I decided the most honest thing I could do was to simply not respond at all, which she told me later had succeeded in warning her. That was pretty nasty. It’s a shitty position for the manager, too.
- there’s not much you can do right now. So hold tight, don’t blame yourself, and wait until the dice are rolled.
Best wishes.