As if THAT’S anything new.
Some of you may know the depression I’ve been trying to fight off for a while came to a head the past couple of days, so I decided to make an appointment with a head shrinker this afternoon. Fortunately, my employer offers this nifty little thing called “Employee Assistance Program”. This allows anyone to visit a shrink three times for free at one particular mental health center.
Problem #1: My employer does not include this particular center on its “inside the network” (or whatever the hell it’s called) service. This means that after the inital 3 visits I have to cover the $200 deductible and approximately $18-10 per visit after the initial visits. Now what fucking kind of logic is THAT shit!
Problem #2: The two mental health clinics that ARE included in my employer’s network thingy are booked til at least September. Oh, yeah, I’m studying the survivability of a crash in my make and model of car and I wanna wait til September to see someone. Fuck.
Problem #3: I really liked the chick I talked to today. Unfortunately she’s a M.S.W. and L.I.C.S.W. but NOT a M.D., which means she can’t prescribe head drugs.
Problem #4: My inside the network clinics are booked til 3 August. Hence no head drugs til then. And I don’t EVEN want to get into how many people I told my story to as I was sobbing while they transferred me back and forth trying to fit me in.
Some of this is my fault, I’m sure. If I had a regular doc I could call him/her to do a scrip over the phone; unfortunately I’ve been to a doc maybe twice in the past 5 years. And I COULD go to an out-of-network provider but I don’t have the cash. And if I have to pay that co-pay I REALLY won’t have the cash.
And you know what’s pissing me off the most? If I called one of those fucking clinics and told them I’ve had a temp of 103 for the past three days and my lower back hurts, they’d have me in for a consult and write me a scrip for antibiotics so fast it would make your head spin. Of course, I don’t have a temp; I’ve just been bawling for 3 days - not nearly the same thing.
