HoneyBadgerDC, I’m sorry for your loss.
Noting your location, I’m going to suggest that if you feel that you might benefit from the support of a bereavement group, I know of one that my dad joined in 2010, following my mother’s death, and that he remained with until his own death two years ago. It was very healing for him, and he stayed with it for so long so he could pay it forward.
PM me if you’re interested (or if your girlfriend’s kids might be), and I’ll get you the details.
Thank you so much, I think I will be ok. Last few days I have been just sorting through boxes and bins and drawers trying to find all the things that were meaningful to her to give to her kids.
Stepping back and having a few days to reflect I can see where my frustration and anger were looking for hope where there was none. The last month she was alive she barely ate, all she did was drink. She was having more and more " accidents". It was really just an extended nightmare. Nothing could help her at this point.
I am only saving 1 photograph and the tissue I used to wipe her tears during her last hours. It is a part of my life I just need to put behind me and move on.
My condolences to you. I’m so sorry there was not a better outcome.
I’m terribly sorry for your loss.
Big hugs, HBDC, and condolences and commiseration.