was raised religious, struggled with it all in college, have come to some conclusions i feel comfortable with.
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God, whatever that is, has been ill-defined by religion. er. wrongly defined as “the thing that wants things to go the way we think things should go.” obedience to this thing will make you get more things how you want them in life.
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“evil” is, ostensibly, just another poor/ill-defined term for “things we don’t like.” sort of the opposite of 1–
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If there’s a God, It cannot be concerned too greatly about what “we want.”
without being too verbose–i starting having a big issue with the concept of prayer a while back. as in “God, i want this thing–GIVIT.” it can be that you want a new job; a loved one to get well from being ill; to find your car-keys; for your team to win the ball game.
the problem i have is clearly we cannot just be granted some cosmic asylum from all bad things, or from things we just don’t want, or for our cosmic christmas list to be granted. the biggest issue with that is we are kind of stupid and self serving. when i was younger i would literally beg God for some things to come to pass (or not,) only to learn as time went on that if i HAD been granted my prayers, it would have ultimately sucked so, so hard for me.
thank GOD i didn’t get my prayers answered. what a nightmare life could be.
going a step forward, if i pray my team wins–guess what, the other team loses. if god plays favorites, how can there be any justice in this reality? if i get the job and so-and-so does not, how is that fair? i think things like “fair” or “just” have to be absent.
so i kind of look at evil the same way.
does evil even actually exist? most people see the cruelty of nature as evil. that poor, sweet innocent gazelle baby who is eaten by cheetahs. or that tree that fell on uncle sam and killed him.
i’m not so sure these things are evil…they just suck for the person they suck for, but are either good or ambivalent for the other side.
this gets trickier when i think about random acts of violence.
i think people are capable of just incomprehensibly unpleasant things, but i don’t see them as action in defiance of God or some kind of biblical proof of evil. Hitler had rationalized his actions in his mind as some facet of a greater good. and, i guess had his brain eaten away by syphilis and had some absurd brushes with death that lead him to think he was some kind of special in the mind of God.
it seems fairly easy to see detriment to your species for personal gain as evil. i used to think that the universal benchmark for good was just trying to keep each other alive and well. but then, war…sometimes you gotta war. sometimes it really is what is best for you. but that means it’s terrible for someone else; what’s best for them is for YOU to die.
attributing what is best for you as proof there’s a God and He loves you is self-serving. really the only way things can work is for “whatever God is” to be utterly indifferent to what happens. partial treatment to any one person nearly always infringes on another. often people consider that infringement “evil.”
i saw a deal on snowy owls that really signifies what i mean. the mating pair had 5 chicks, so the male had to go hunt lemmings. when the winter was harsh and it was hard to find and catch lemmings, the family suffered. the narrator was heartbroken for their struggle–“if only there were more lemmings!” TO BE CAPTURED AND KILLED AND EATEN. the nature story from the aspect of the lemming’s family is nothing but reoccurring tragedy, but it’s triumph and goodness for the owls.
that’s life. it’s bleak by design.