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and I’m not really sure how I feel about it.
On one hand, I’m excited. I mean I’m a 19 year old boy and this is my first deployment, I’m still young and stupid enough to want to go. Plus, the money will be wicked.
On the other hand, I’m extremely anxious. If there are enemy lines, I’ll be behind them. I’m not really worried about myself in the least bit. What I’m really worried about is letting the people that depend on me down. I have my crew of three others and they literally trust their lives in my ability to make quick decisions, as I do with them. I’ve had a lot of training, and I do mean a lot. Is it enough? My unit seems to think so, and I hope they’re right.
I am so proud of my mother. I know this is killing her inside (I left for Basic the day before her birthday, and now I’m leaving in the week of her’s this year also). But for me, because she knows that that’s what I need right now, she is being strong. She isn’t complaining (too much), nor is she crying. Or, she’s not crying when I can hear her. I know it’s selfish of me, but I couldn’t handle it. I have so much on my mind right now, that I need as little distractions as possible. I do promise to make it up for her when I get back. I’m thinking of a nice weekend at the Venetian with tickets to an art show. I think she’d like that. Cyn, don’t say anything.
I’m also going to miss my grandparents 50th anniversary, that and Thanksgiving, and this will be my first missed Christmas. I guess that’s a right of passage of some sorts.
Should we be in Iraq? Was it right to invade? I really don’t care. It doesn’t matter what I think, it doesn’t matter if it was right or wrong, all that matters is that I’m going to do a job the best that I can so “…that others may live.”
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Good luck Rand. Take care of yourself over there and come back safe. Are you Army or Marines or Air Force?
Not that it matter, man. Just be safe. Hooah!