So I contacted S through email.
(Stop throwing things at me dammit!)
There is a local technology professionals group on MeetUp.com and a friend let me know about the group and a specific event they were promoting a couple weeks ago. It sounded very interesting to me, both the subject matter of the event and the group as a whole so I went onto Meetup.com and registered and signed up for the event.
After signing up for the event, I saw in the RSVP list my ex-girlfriend’s name. She had signed up on MeetUp.com and this group about a week earlier and registered to attend the same event I was interested in. As my thread here indicates, I’m really not ready to deal with seeing her in public events, etc. so I ended up not attending.
So for the last couple weeks I’ve kept my eyes on this group. They host regular happy hour type events and I’ve been wanting to go to those events but that same fear of running into S has kept me from RSVP’ing or going.
Yesterday afternoon I emailed S and asked her if she planned on being active with this group, etc. I told her I also registered for the previous event but did not attend when I saw her name on the list. I told her I would like to become involved with this networking group but would not do so if she is going to become actively involved.
She responded late yesterday that she had just heard about the presentation being given and had registered to go to that event only. She did not end up going due to work. She said she did not plan to be active but she did not feel she had to say she would never attend one of their events out of deference to me. (I never said or indicated that was my request). She did say she understands that I do not want to see her right now but she hopes that changes in the future.
I did reply to her response letting her know that I did not ask her to say she would never attend one of their events and I was sorry if I gave her that impression. I did tell her that I would appreciate, as a courtesy, she let me know if she sees an event she wants to attend so that I can then make a decision for myself based upon my feelings at that time.
Then like a schmuck I kept typing - I don’t know why, perhaps to explain why I contacted her? To explain why it was an issue for me? Because I’m an idiot? (ding ding WINNER ding ding) I told her that since she did not have the same feelings for me as I had for her that I assume this break-up has been easier on her than me. That I further assume that she is probably further along in “moving on” than I am. I told her that I do still miss her and think of her often.
:smack: :smack: :smack: :smack:
So pop quiz time!
Michael went to bed in his hotel room (I’m on a business trip) last night and:
A.) Slept like a baby, waking rested and focused on his meetings today.
B.) Tossed and turned all night, not really able to get comfortable in a strange bed.
C.) Obsessively thought about S, her response, how much I missed her, and how afraid I am of whatever she may say in response to my last email. As a result, I barely got any rest last night and had to devote a LOT of energy during my meetings today to be focused and on-target.
D. B and C
E. None of the above.