Actually, I wanted to edit my post because you really had an effect on me and that is worth sharing. Sincerely. It was too late, so I replied again…
I believe I started reading the dope in 95 or 96 on AOL when I was in a physics undergrad program and struggling. I wasn’t struggling with physics (I had straight A’s, was a member of Sigma-Pi-Sigma and Tau-Beta-Pi, was president of my college’s physics club, tutored at nearby high schools, ran the regional science fair, etc…), but with the more mundane aspects like depression and having a life. I ended up dropping out of college in my senior year to the dismay of my professors and standing up several interviews I had at Cal Tech, Stanford, and Berkeley for grad school. I lived for a year off my savings drinking, clubbing, and wearing jeans and a bathrobe. I spent the next 4 years working menial jobs as a secretary, or a drafter, or as an assembly line worker in aluminum can plants. All kinds of jobs. I was a mechanic for awhile. I am not going to say it was a dark time, because some of it was the brightest and I did end up understanding a lot about myself.
But, and this is important, I remember reading your posts. I was always reading the dope. Not posting, I didn’t feel like I had much to contribute, but I rad the dope like teenagers scroll tik-tok today. I remember you posting and being a physics grad student and I felt… awe,… and jealousy,… and regret. I still remembered my physics (I was good at it), but reading your posts you were clearly better at it or at least had a better grasp and I always looked for your posts while I lurked.
After a couple of years I went back to school in 2002, finished my bachelors, got a masters (MSEE with a specialization in optics at my state school), and then enrolled in a Ph.D. program for optical computing (thesis (paraphrased): spatial/spectral holography in cryogenically cooled erbium doped crystals and their applications in range/Doppler lidar - there is more, but this is really the pinnacle of my work). I did not finish. By 2008/9 my research was funded by a small defense contractor and the great recession forced them into bankruptcy in my 3rd/4th year. Having a kid and a mortgage, I took my MS and ran. I currently work in remote sensing for NASA (as a contractor at a University).
But you had a part in this. You didn’t know it. How could you? But you (among others at the dope) had an effect on my views and the trajectory of my life. Seriously.
I don’t know why I wrote this. But it is all true.
-Happy Fun Ball, aka L.G.Butts, Ph.D., aka Eyer8